Erratic Thoughts

As a kid, inside my mind;

You was invincible you'll neva die.

I ain't had my 13th birthday, swear I thought I had more time.

Now growing up be da old news, gotta pick up every dime.

I forgot my tears existed until I heard that you'll fly high.

 

Pickin' up all these memories,

They're like treasuries, in the head of me.

Miss my Ma, but she done grew some wings.

Now I'm left alone, for centuries.

Over here hopin' to distract the mind,

But I cant find shit so I'm just on my grind.

Love yall's Mama, treat her good and be kind.

'Cuz my mother up and left 3 babies behind.

 

3 babies behind, no contract was signed.

If you dont do shit for me, then I'm quick to decline.

Watching these other Ville rappers, I just set the bar high.

Wait till I hit this airline, fly to Alaska at night.

Ima watch the northern stars with my blunt n' a light.

 

This aint a sad song, dont get it twisted it aint.

It's just been a minute since I've had time to complain.

I know it's a real struggle when they voice start to get faint.

Got so much to heal from, hella walls to repaint.

 

N' I'm so tired of this shit, nobody hears me till I holler.

I got so fuckin' lost i said "fuck being a scholar."

Needed my mom today and realized damn I can't even call her.

Went through all my keep sakes, and threw out her half dollar.

 

I told yall, this aint a sad mix.

Still on my bullshit, when will I quit?..

I'm steady watchin',

with my glock n',

All that watchin',

make my head spin.

While my head spin,

the glock at my chin.

But I put it down,

I think I'm better within.

Why am I stressin'?

Call the plug again.

Watch my luh trip,

start to begin.

Chase 'em down the block wit a gun in my hand..

Why you runnin' luh bitch?

It's only a 10.

 

My bad, it got a little crazy back there.

Let me spark up this blunt, and go sit in my chair.

I'll put on my headphones, and let that shit blare.

But you'll look in my eyes, and still see the glare.

 

"Girll, life just aint fair."

Ive been told all my life, but this can't compare.

They said take a deep breath, breathe in some air.

That's making it worse, got me saying a prayer.