The Crypt I Closed

Today I opened my crypt to rip my hidden scrape

I burned them into dust, then pressed them on your face

I’ve been runnin’ my whole life tryin’ to heal old rage

But you kept on pushin’ till you made it all escape

Every scar I hid in silence learned to scream,

I was buildin’ walls of calm on lands of screams.

I swallowed every curse and called it fate,

Till pressure taught my lungs how much they hate.

You fed me with your hate and made me drink my tears

You thought you were teachin’ me, but only taught me fear

You thought you were teachin’ me but I learned it all alone

You meant to be my light but you was just a bolt

I stood in storms waitin’ warmth from your flame,

But all you left was thunder carved with my name.

I learned that love ain’t pain dressed up as care,

And fear ain’t guidance when it chains the air.

You struck my own coffin till it lodged in my soul,

I hope you burn in hell till even fire feels cold.

And every time you yell, your torment only grows

When you beg for a drink, you choke down your own rot

I stitched myself from ruins you swore would never heal

Learned how to walk on wounds and never beg or kneel

You wanted me a shadow, silent, broke, and small

But graves don’t hold the ones who outgrow every wall

I rose from what you shattered, scarred but still awake

Now I’m the proof of every breath you failed to take

You filled my head with shame and now I'm spittin' ’em all

Spittin’ ’em on your face and break the false idol

The myth of old man who supposed to be my dad

Supposed to be my safety and also be my pax

You were my worst fear and who made me pax

I thought you got my rear but found myself stabbed

I’ve looked back to see who had stabbed my back

I turned around and saw the truth I can't believe

The hand behind the knife was yours stained by me

Your pax was just a lie dressed up as holy law

You named control as faith and called it “for my good,”

You crowned yourself my judge, my jailer, and my god.

I broke it when I chose to live without your jaw,

When silence stopped obeyin’ and I cut your law.

I don’t forgive, don’t pray, don’t wait for you to demise,

I've buried your grim name where would my mercy die,

I’ve closed my crypt for good, stepped into my own life,

Not son of your damn shadow who's livin' in my light