18 and crooked

(Verse 1)

Yeah, eighteen, supposed to feel the invincible shine,

But I'm built on a fracture, a crooked design.

Scoliosis, man, it ain't just a curve, it's a thief,

Stole my posture, replaced it with constant belief...

That the pain is permanent, a permanent resident,

In my spine, every day is a battle against the sediment.

Of discomfort, tryna hide the brace under a shirt,

Feelin' like a machine that's designed to hurt.

I watch other cats move free, fluid, and fast,

While I'm just praying this grinding feeling won't last.

Trying to chase goals, but my body's the anchor,

Hard to focus on dreams when your back is a cranker.

 

(Chorus)

Eighteen and crooked, that's the hand I was dealt,

Fighting silent battles that nobody else felt.

Then you add the heartbreak, the betrayal, the lies,

Why is it women always see me through cheating eyes?

I put in the effort, the loyalty, the trust,

But they shatter the mirror and turn love into dust.

From the spine to the spirit, I'm constantly strained,

Just searching for something that won't be rearranged.

 

(Verse 2)

The physical pain is something I learned to endure,

But the mental scars from the heartbreak are pure.

I'm a good dude, why do I keep getting played out?

Every time I invest, they got another way out.

They see the support, they see the dedication,

Then they find a distraction, a new conversation.

Maybe they think I'm weak 'cause I move kinda slow,

Maybe the pain on my face is a target, I don't know.

But every time I bend over to tie up a lace,

I get reminded of the weight and the two-faced embrace.

Thought I found shelter, thought I found a true queen,

Just another casualty, another predictable scene.

Now I'm stuck, double-pain, the body and soul bruised,

How do I rebuild when all the foundations are misused?

 

(Chorus)

Eighteen and crooked, that's the hand I was dealt,

Fighting silent battles that nobody else felt.

Then you add the heartbreak, the betrayal, the lies,

Why is it women always see me through cheating eyes?

I put in the effort, the loyalty, the trust,

But they shatter the mirror and turn love into dust.

From the spine to the spirit, I'm constantly strained,

Just searching for something that won't be rearranged.

 

(Bridge)

Yeah, the world keeps spinning, the clock keeps running,

But I'm walking uphill, fighting something oncoming.

Gotta learn to love this frame, this structure of steel,

Gotta learn that loyalty's rare, but the pain will heal.

Gonna straighten my purpose, even if the spine's still curved,

'Cause I deserve better than the treatment I've observed.

 

(Outro)

So I'm standing tall, even if the inches are lost,

I paid the highest price, I know the real cost.

No more cheating games, no more hurting my pride,

Gotta fix the inside before I let anyone ride.

One day at a time, one less ache in the back,

Gonna break the cycle, get my spirit back on track.