In My Head

What's in my head ? lookin' for answers i will never get

What's in my head ? i used to look under my bed

I was lookin' for monster that doesn't exist

The true monster was in my head but i forget

Is that a dread ? i've lost my feels i can't discern

Lost in my fears i wish i could reach but i had to return

I wish i had urge i wish i was brave to search

For something to purge i i wish i was firm

I wish i had my turn i wish i had a chance to learn

I wish i didn't concern i've lost more than i would earn

I wish i didn't jerk or squirm i wish i was heard

It's a murk i'm losing my mind and i can confirm

Daltonism is it a light i can't define

Perfectionism seekin' sublime it's a crime

But i can't even survive I'm feelin' blind

Confined in rainbow but sky will never cry