Weight won't go

Woke up to the weight, same gray in the sky,

Mind full of static, can’t tell lie from truth.

Smile for the world, but inside I’m cracked,

Heartbeat on loop like a song I can’t relax.

 

It’s heavy, yeah — thoughts like storms in my chest,

Tryna stay afloat but I’m sinking, no rest.

See the joy pass by, like cars down the street,

I wave, but they don’t stop — don’t know how to meet.

 

I’m tired of pretending I’m fine, just “in my head,”

When every damn morning feels like rising from dead.

The silence screams loud, and the dark’s got a name,

It whispers I’m worthless,

livin without purpose

wishin i could be someone who's worth it

playing this game, but i can never win it

every time i try i always vomit

 

maybe i just wish i can be someone great

be someone my dad will appreciate

got the weight on my shoulders that wont go away

tryin be strong, trynna make it

tired of carrying it so i just let it. crush

 

No fight left, no spark, no plan,

Just a ghost in my skin, barely a man.

I trace the cracks where the light used to get in,

Now the dark’s all I know, all I’ve ever been.

 

I don’t scream, I don’t cry, I just fade to gray,

Like shadows at dusk, slowly pulled away.

This ain’t a war — I already lost,

Just countin’ the hours, waitin’ for the cost.

 

So if I’m gone, don’t beg me to stay,

I’ve already left — just forgot to walk away.

The silence? That’s peace. The end? It’s a friend.

Guess this is where the pain finally ends.