I DON'T WANNA by Brexton
• Written by LyricalX
I don't wanna do this anymore
I really don't wanna, no-no
She say she love me
But do she really? (Do she really? Ayy)
And you broke my heart
Left me to die for (die for)
What am I livin' for? (Was I ever yours?)
The life of a mad man, bitch I am not Batman
I am not no hackman, these niggas know I ain't no bad man
Imma dead man walkin', why these niggas talkin'?
My life ain't real shocking, Imma put my all in
I can hear God calling, I can see God watching
Grab my Glocky you know we finna clock him
And I gotta be the best man
And I don't like no yes-men, no-no
Don't get yourself hurt by defending me (ah-ah)
Everyone be resenting me (ah-ah)
What are we supposed to be?
Please do not get too close to me
I'm a grimace, I'm a grimace
And I don't know why I'm still living
Break my heart and leave me out to dry (leave me out to dry)
If I fucking died, would you care or cry?
Or merely pass by and continue to live your life?
You've broken me beyond repair
And nowadays all I feel is despair
It's like my heart isn't even there
Do you even care? Do you even care?
I get all these nightmares, yeah
And I see you standin' right there, yeah
How can I fix what we had?
Mama told me please don't be sad, no
I can't really fuck with you
I was never really in love with you
I ain't put no trust in you
She don't really fuck with me, no
She wasn't in love with me, no
And I know she won't ever put no trust in me
If I could just live so luxury
I fucked myself up, no recovery, summary
Of my life, now my ass is up in Hungary
She was my treasury, she was my discovery
I'm way fucked up beyond recognition, my brother was so brotherly
But now that he died from the streets I got no one to act motherly
No one to father me, this shit is just some puppetry
I'm on that thuggery, I guess I'm thuggish
So fuck this, I'm movin sluggish
All you hoes just make assumptions, end of discussions
My heart you took and published, yea
Ma' told me I was the toughest, nowadays I just be shrugging
My beats be very rugged, got that baggage and that luggage
I got no one I can be hugging, all of this shit is just rubish
Maybe I should call up Douglas
I wanna call my plug up, but fuck it
I'm high off this Xanny, I'm always gettin punished
Nobody understands me, not even when I'm in public
I don't do therapy 'cause I can never feel uplift
They call me the dumbest, they call me the roughest
You kissed him instead of me, so fuck him
I don't wanna do this anymore
I really don't wanna, no-no
She say she love me
But do she really? (Do she really? Ayy)
And you broke my heart
Left me to die for (die for)
What am I livin' for? (Was I ever yours?)
I don't wanna (be with you) no more
Shook me to my core as the rain just pours
And Imma grab that damn C4_
And blow myself up, my mind's always at war
I never felt this way before
Now you want me out the door
Bleeding all on the floor
I don't know what's in store (for me)
And these niggas are immature
This some shit that's hard to ignore
Can my heart be restored?
All this shit gets me bored
You stabbed me with a sword
Now I gotta pray to the Lord
To find me someone who can give support
You fucked me up, of course
Now Imma be sitting in court
I tried to make a report
But my life might be cut short
And I know I know since my parents' divorce
I've been fucked up
So losing you is something I can't afford
(No more) You act like you want a reward
(For breakin me) You are my last resort
(They're takin me) They're takin me by force
(And you've shaken me) You feel no remorse
I sit by a corpse, my vision just distorts
I don't know what I endorse
Fuck the rules you're trying to enforce
I tried my best, for sure
Now I'm worn and torn, you're a demon in disguise with horns
Saw you fucking him, of course
I used to be so adored ('til you came in my life)
And nowadays I wanna grab that knife
I wanna fucking commit suicide
You broke my ass more than twice
So how am I supposed to get by?
And I know it's easy for you to say bye
But for me it's hard and it's hard every time
So I try my best not to fucking cry
But sometimes I wanna fucking cry
So why the fuck should I even try?
Tell me why oh why
Are we still here?
I don't wanna do this anymore
I really don't wanna, no-no
She say she love me
But do she really? (Do she really? Ayy)
And you broke my heart
Left me to die for (die for)
What am I livin' for? (Was I ever yours?)
She wants me to disappear, and I hate it
I can never face it, she can never face him
Why can't I face shit? All these drugs I'm taking
I try to ease the pain shit, I can't let the pain in
I can't let the fakes in, I can't let the snakes in
All these hoes be snaking, all these hoes be faking
I just cannot take it, they said I wouldn't make it
But I made it without goin apeshit
Now I snort that coke to become famous
All these drugs got me feeling the greatest
(Your death is my payment)
She pictures everyone naked
I thought I was the greatest
She always took me places
(I don't belong) On a daily basis
(She says I'm wrong) She says my ass is basic
That's why I get wasted, all these new faces
Why am I so hated? Now I'm gettin faded
Mama said I was destined for greatness
That bitch be a sadist, I try to be courageous
But this shit is contagious and it's so outrageous
And I wish (and I wish) life could be painless
Would anyone still be here if I was nameless?
Would anyone give a shit on my hiatus?
That's why life's so heinous and shameless
And you think that you're blameless
All I see are people who are faceless
I can't heal, Imma leave em brainless
And I'm losing my sanity, I got no more saneness
And I'm not the one they miss
I'm fucked up every day bitch
And I know (I know I know) that I'm not the sanest
She kept breaking me, she's left me shaken
I can't do this shit no more
I think I might just end our relation, yeah
I don't wanna do this anymore
I really don't wanna, no-no
She say she love me
But do she really? (Do she really? Ayy)
And you broke my heart
Left me to die for (die for)
What am I livin' for? (Was I ever yours?)
