I wish

I don't trust the thoughts that come inside my head

I just wanna rip it and throw it in my basement

I just wanna run away but i waste my trend

I want someone to listen i just need a friend

I wanna rip my heart and take it off my chest

I know these times are hard i only have to start

I wish i was starred but stars are only grits

I wish i had skills to win , i guess i'll resist

I wish that hope exists , i've lost since my birth

I wish i can decide , decision is an excess

I wish i can describe , what's goin' in my mind

I've lived inside my kindness inside this grim cell

I see you everyday inside lucid dreams

I'm losin' all my feels and losin' my believes

I'm countin' days and weeks until i get to sleep

I lost my will to speak i wish i disappear

Dear me you're so strong

Please don't lose your hope

Please don't look to floor

You have a beautiful ceil