tired

https://soundcloud.com/r4inyd4ys/tired-demo

 

up at 5:30 in the kitchen,

can't sleep, caught between

Moving on and reminiscing

Yeah,

shit been like a rollercoaster ride, I guess

And when I'm feeling low, all I do is hope the high is next

All my life,

I been struggling with my thoughts

But I try to remember all that I got

I got a family that's preachin' for me to seek redemption

And all the friends helping lift the burdens of my depression

The little things in life, they always say to hold on

Cause memories is all we got, when the soul's gone

Departed from the world, like the ones that left before me

I hold em in my heart, believe they're living through the stories

Contemplative through late nights and early mornings

Drinking helps, but the bottle's run out from all the pouring

No metaphors, I just mean that my heart's running empty

I tear myself up on rainy days, just to feel something

 

I live in a constant state of misery and fear

And when the world comes crashing down, around,

I'll still be here

 

Stumble blindly to my bedroom, half past six,

Not a single wink of sleep slipping past these sips

Faces flashing past me in a corridor of doorways

In my mind, afraid to open up, these cans of worms I'm storing

Wish my mind was a hard drive I could wipe clean,

But without the pain that made me, who would I be?

A blank slate, an empty book with no stories to tell

No scars to lead me when I'm travelling the path to hell

So I bottle up the bottles drunk through these sleepless nights

And push em down to somewhere deep and dark,

where the light don't shine

I feel alive,

when I don't feel at all

But I'm hanging on

till the curtain call

Phone is silent, not a single soul, no ringing in my ears

Isolation's violent, feeling cold, it feed into my fears

I hope they think I'm someone trying to be enough,

Everybody wants to be remembered by the ones they love

 

I live in a constant state of misery and fear

And when the world comes crashing down, around,

I'll still be here