Untitled Season I-NARCISSIST

Lied so many times, my body feels wooden

my doll-like expression is fake till it isn't

I don't ever feel like I've ever been forgiven

tried to tell the truth , my nose grows longer because its forbidden

 

god gave me his blessing, I used it to sin for the hood

less like the old me every day, locking myself away

just because i should doesn't mean that i could

I feel great using somebody elses pain, for my own gain

 

back to my old ways, the old taste, more of the same

hole up inside of my brain, guess who you made isn't alive

he keep on draining my thoughts, complaining that im not who i was

maybe i wanna be new but old,but the new me is still alone

 

But im not a creep

im not a believer

im not a heathen

who would believe her

nobody cares-

nobodys there

 

 

Can't attone

for all my crimes,

im, im, the device, that you hate to have as your vice

ill advise that you don't get overgrown

i attract those who'd kill for your bones

i attract too many mark sloanes

I attract sticks and stones

i back those who can't be alone

for too long, we get scared and wish for their thrones

so we can kill them and coat our homes in their blo-ody gold

im grown, im grown, i promise im-, Im promise

 

But im not a creep

im not a believer

im not a heathen

who would believe her

nobody cares

nobodys there

 

Im just sad, im terrified of my mind and what else is there

what else is left

what else is there for me to learn

old dog same tricks

same food, same meat

cleave me, cleave me

cleave me

cleave me

don't believe me

don't deceive me

don't

don't, don't listen, but please don't leave me

im not what they say

im only who i am today, today

i should go,

i should go

Maybe i should leave

Maybe im not your baby anymore

maybe im just who you once loved

maybe i should say my sorrys

maybe i should apologise

maybe i should say goodbyes

maybe you should say your goodbyes

maybe you should say your goodnights

but whose to say ill be here the next day?