Living in the Darkness

Still stuck in a cage of this vast pain.

But that's what happens when they change your last name.

and then you realize death not doing you apart is a bad thang.

and I ain't talking wedding vows.

I'm talking when your family claims love like it's a word to throw around.

and it's like a boomerang, with two inch blades, because it only comes back to ground

itself into your spine, poisoned with lies, and the sound

of guilt trips, that stunt your will and

they get mad because your still stuck healin'.

They say your hearts a temple so I let them in the construction site and the destroy what I'm fuckin' buildin'!

So now I was forced to lie, and that gives them the state of mind, and the right to paint me the fucking villain.

Damn I remember when I was light hearted but now.

 

I keep living in the darkness

oh the past is in the past i try to catch myself

to keep it in the past

I don't wanna keep running

I just want my feet on the ground

and walk away from the darkness

and walk away from the darkness

 

 

I need to let go of this anger.

but like every call with my dad it's hanged up

on a pedestal.

and I forever let it pool.

and never cope with it till the letters do.

and sometimes I forget who these letters are too.

as much as they are for me they are for you.

I know the darkness!

I know what it feels like to have your life at it's hardest!

I know what it feels like, for someone to grab a steel knife, and sharpen

it ,then get, parked in.

your back, when before that, you could barely stand on your own.

and now you wanna manage life alone.

but your too afraid to leave all you've known.

to you this is home.

So you stay in the chains

in your own way.

You'd rather deal with dark then go to the light and it blind your eye with everyone away.

To you it's worse to be alone then to have the ones close call you a mistake.

and that's why

 

I keep living in the darkness

oh the past is in the past i try to catch myself

to keep it in the past

I don't wanna keep running

I just want my feet on the ground

and walk away from the darkness

and walk away from the darkness