Presence

Pops dipped, left a silhouette in the doorframe

Raised by the echo, I been wrestlin’ the floor stain

Bloodline crooked — got his name but it don’t fit

Hole in my spirit like the crib had a cold split

 

Used to hope he’d show with the sun, but it set fast

Watched the light die in my mom, nothin’ gets past

She ain’t speak foul, but the quiet said enough

I was buildin’ up a wall, every brick was his bluff

 

Chorus:

Where you go when the love don’t land?

I was searchin’ in the smoke with a cut-open hand

You a myth in my mind, just a voice in the fan

But I’m still that kid waitin’, just tryin’ to understand

 

Verse 2:

Did you flinch when you left? Did the guilt ever creep in?

Or was I just a name on a list you ain’t keepin’?

I been piecin’ through the years like a puzzle with no edge

Tryna balance all this anger on a sliver of regret

 

Never learned how to shave or to stand with my chest out

Learned to cry quiet — it was safer to let doubts

Stack in the attic like your boxes and breath

Your shadow in my life felt a lot like death

 

And I walk like you now, it’s a curse I been wearin’

Even got your lying habit, man, it’s somethin’ I’m scared of

Like, how you give me traits but no path, no presence?

Had to father my pain; just to make it a weapon

 

Chorus:

Where you go when the love don’t land?

I was searchin’ in the smoke with a cut-open hand

You a myth in my mind, just a voice in the fan

But I’m still that kid waitin’, just tryin’ to understand

 

Outro:

It’s not hate, it’s a hunger you ain’t fed

It’s talkin’ to a silence where your voice shoulda been

I don’t even want an answer, just peace in my chest

But I still look for you in every mirror I check