Just the same

Woke up again, i don’t know why,

Its the same ceiling, same silence, same grey sky,

I have people around me, but i still feel alone,

Like im screaming loud, on a dead phone,

I move through the day like a ghost in the crowd,

I smile when they look, but inside i aint proud,

They say, you got time, youll figure it out,

But im drowning in doubt and im too scared to shout,

Im lost, im here, im trying to survive,

Trying light a fire where the cold wind thrive,

Dont tell me stay strong i do that on repeat,

But its hard when your heart just forgets how to beat,

They say chase your dreams, but mine dont chase me back,

All i got is a journal, and a panic attack,

Comparisons a thief and it robs me blind,

Just leaves me in the dark trying to search for a sign,

Im lost, but i swear im still trying,

I keep walking, even when my hope starts dying,

I aint looking for pity or fake advice,

Just someone who sees me, without thinking twice,

Tell me im more, than the pain i conceal,

Tell me its okay that my scars dont always heal,

Cause im tired of pretending im tired of this game,

Tired of being okay when im not feeling the same.