Parlay

I'm born and raised in Japan, a native. Hear me out.

I was born without cochlea. That's the snail shaped shit in your ears that convert vibrations into frequencies you percieve as sound. So when you think, you think with an inner voice, with vocal words.

Not me.

I think in hand gestures, not sound, not text. You're the fifth X Factor member to refer to me as a hand talker.

That was before being lyrical.

 

Now, let me explain something: I'm inherently blunt, but not hostile.

Now I'll explain it further. What does sign language require? Hands. Eye contact. People within the deaf community have to physically stop anything and everything they're doing just to have a conversation or simply respond "okay". That means it's counter productive. To get around this sign languages rearrange word order so it's faster and more fluid, and eliminates a lot of filler words.

It's impossible too "um" or "uh".

This means that deaf individuals also write and think in those word orders, it's our main language. So when someone is hard of hearing, not only do they do their absolute fucking best to not stand out and be judged, but they're even more of an outsider than those who are fully deaf. Suicide rates in the country with the happiest deaf communities are a third higher than suicides by rape victims in the country that has the highest recorded rape crimes. That countries rape victims outnumber that happy deaf community at the moment just over 37:1.

 

Example from my track Mom (Take 2)

 

 

But back on topic. I am blunt, yes. It's not intentional. Try having to stop every single thing you are doing in life just to say hello to someone. I'm used to ensuring I don't have too repeat myself. A deaf person saying "you're a fucking idiot" is the equivalent of a hearing person say "that's okay, try it again". Except the deaf person will stick around and genuinely help.

Try having people constantly gettting pissed at you and calling you retarded simply because they lack patience to try overcoming the language barrier.

 

Us deaf mfs have that same language barrier, same irritations with EVERY FUCKING PERSON we ever interact with.

 

I'd rather be clowned on my sexual assault several verses over, then have to flip a single fucking "you're a hand talker" line.

To use that's like a white mf dropping the hard R then pissing on your family grave yelling "pick my cotton".

Yes I'm deaf, no shit to anyone reading this and considering trying. You're more likely to get strangled to death by a deaf person for saying that shit in Japan than shot in Compton as a white guy yelling "slave".

Anyone reading this, fucking try me. James did it.

It was declared a suicide, but I'm not snitching on my people.

I warned him.

 

Jeezy, I wouldn't care if you're my best friend or worst enemy, never try that shit again.

That's not a threat. That's simply "I will lose any respect for you."

The threat that I HOPE I DON'T follow through on is that I will literally dig into soomeones shit. Doxing isn't illegal if it's unpublished and used for rap.

You're in the U.S. that means your name and all personal info is online via thousands of resources, your own voting ballots for example. "Confidential" hospital records, school reports, job history, car insurance. You literally only need a name, an age, a phone number, email, city of birth, current state. Any TWO of those things and you can drag up an Americans entire life only stopping at being able to commit credit fraud. The tiniest bit of reverse engineering to find out what someone's dogs disease is.

I pull up all this shit, all this dirt, not to tear wounds into someone, but to drip the poison in. I don't battle people to win. I battle to ensure they never cross my path again and I don't care in the moment how hurtful I am, how deeply I cut, or how much they hurt.

None of that was a threat to you, Jeezy. That was a public addressing.

 

I could literally rap about someone's dying breath in the exact layout of their bathroom I. Tallahassee and go into how their dog will devour them but for og chron's disease, all while their parents are too busy wife swapping at his dead grammys house in San Bernardino.

That's how I addressed Anton.

I dragged up the trucker stall he sucked dick in for crack, the hospital his O.D'd brother flatlined in.

 

Now I'm gonna reiterate.

I DO NOT like to battle rap.

I write as therapy.

I write glimpses of my life to better understand myself.

My writings are self reflection.

You try processing all this shit I write about in fucking Wingding emojis.

Fuck that.

 

I'm not here for you,

I'm not here for him,

I'm not here for her,

They,

Them,

Those,

Or these.

 

I'm here for me.

I'm here to self reflect and weave snippets of my life.

I'm here to mind my business and further understand myself.

I'm here for my dad who learned sign language just to introduce me to rap.

I'm here just to leave an insignificant "I was here".

I'm here to come back to my works every couple of months and grow as a person.

 

I'm just happy doing me, locking myself in my room and writing cool shit.

I go to cyphers in person and endured a lifetime of intensive vocal training just to do it.

Most of the people who participate AND win are stressed the fuck out salarymen who are usually one cigarette away from a heart attack

And I live in a culture where being different is disgusting.

I'm not considered human. My mother was proof of that. Highschool, sexual assaults.

 

If it seems like I'm yapping to you Jeezy, or anyone X-Factor who was pulling shit to fuck with me,

That's intentional.

I am deaf.

I'm not going to repeat myself.

Not going to keep coming back to this topic.

I only beef in retaliation.

 

So call it settled, call it a truce, call it permanent or temporary. (I'm looking at EVERYONE who dragged me into this shit) I'm doing me, as mentioned several times the past week or so. But don't think I'll sit back and tolerate shit. You be peaceful, and I'll be peaceful. That's how my father raised me. And that's how I've been throughout all this bullshit. I'm not attacking any of you, I just retaliate.

 

Regarding the last part, I'll repeat the very first line.

The fuck was I gonna do as a child go socialize? I learned shit 😉

Mf's out playing soccer and shit, I was learning tech.