The weights heavy by StormTheArs...

The weights heavy - by StormTheArsonist

 

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I'm seeing dark sky's, and at times it feels like the sun never rise

like darkness has over taken the evening, at times i rather die

I'm having trouble closing my eyes....having trouble sleeping!

honestly, maybe possibly depression. I've been barely eating

I recognize the fact that I must change, and start believing

in my self, give myself meaning, but I'm busy fighting off these demons

 

cause my mental being has been taken several beating's.

I'm mentally distorted, haunted by mistakes within goals I've

aborted and now have no meaning, I'm just physically exhausted.

watching my reflection and i don't like what I'm seeing.

it's distorted by some spiritual being, its deceiving

because deep inside i know it's me that I'm seeing!...

 

of course its me sleeping. maybe if i open my eyes ill end the dreaming

instead of leaning on my own neck, so I can start breathing.

and start healing to shake off these negative vibes I'm feeling.

through reasons of writing and expressing myself for your reading.

it seems its slowly squeezing out the relief I've been seeking.

slowly healing, slowing down this bleeding. keeping faith in myself

 

through evening after evening, slowly achieving my goals

to cleanse my inner soul and take back control and defeat all these demons.

and as I learn about myself these demons are slowly leaving.

as I'm finding the answers that I've been seeking, feels like freedom,

my path was lacking BELIEVING.... in myself to stop the bleeding

The self teaching, was faith, That's all I was needing!

 

StormTheArsonist