Salvation

 

Tryna understand the thoughts, as I demand 'n I fought

Pry my eye into ma mental, detrimental to the devil, sentimental to da temple

Purgatory burned my vessel, fell to hell 'n glory fizzled

Saw my story learned so little, know it all yet mind so brittle

She told me all this 'n more, cold at night under streetlight source

Only heat her 'n I received, holding me younger than me

But so wise holy 'n pretty, beauty I ain't see in life, held her close yet lost her light

She had died filthy 'n dizzy, in a trance truly a pity, I had cried for hours after

Tears created ocean matter, 'motions tattered, hands felt shattered

Broken bones broke poems 'n letters, I had written to her pleasure

Stole my soul 'n goals were never, reached, given truth 'n notes to teach

Cruel this world is to me

 

 

 

My past is a puzzle pieces scattered and torn, memories like tattered pages some days I mourn

But other days I rise like the sun in the dawn, chasin dreams but they fade like a ghost at dawn

I’m caught in the cycle the highs and the lows, a canvas painted gray you can see how it grows

Every struggle’s a stroke every scar’s a reveal, tryna decipher the lines but I don’t know what’s real

Late nights, deep thoughts, lost in the zone, scrolling through the highlights like I’m trapped in my phone

Voices in my head, they whisper, “Just heal” but I’m trapped in this maze I don’t know what to feel

 

 

Going through life, it isn't easy

It never gets easier