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i have a complete body shutdown, the blood circulation ends movement, termination

the temperature at freezing, the sense of self is disappearing, the cold becomes the bold, the skin turns blue from gold

feel faint, left my happy place, didn't see gods presence, lost the faith and grace,

my mother rushed me to the hospital to get a treatment, they said hes having an emotional body paralysis,

did you get help, the question was blasphemous, i wasn't if im being quite honest

i never took the time of my life to get some time to talk, just had to realize, when i fell apart, to the brink, to the edge of my life

i closed my eyes, wind beneath within calmed my nerves, negative swerves, how can i do something before i gets worse

am im stuck in this never-ending curse, it's a exaggeration, but im an adult and its the moment for a real conversation

 

Thinkin’ about life, everytime that I do, get these blue feels,

Ain’t nothin’ new, pop perc feelin’ brand new,

Want to reach my goals, I’m not even close,

Scared my health might fold, I don't wanna be a ghost

(Like my idols)

In da late nights feeling suicidal, Can’t listen to the voice,

I feel like i don’t have a choice, so i’m downing’ bottle after bottles

On the surface everything seems be okay,

Really i’m putin’ on play to avoid state of my affairs,

On many different days, complete blowing out my brains, (Ny think bout life)

So much doubt on my mental state, (i’m scared)

I just wanna clean slate, felt like am stuck in a grave,

On many different types drugs as a means of escape

Lately I’ve been numbing all the pain, slowly going insane, (Save me)

Acid frying my brain, Losing Sanity (Sanity)

Avoiding reality, heart of inanity, My happiness is temporality,

When drugs were off, i'm up in distraught,

I need some help. I don't want to bounce…

 

thank you for the chance to leave a voicemail,

went to the back of the mind and met my self-consensus, he says you need this, you are beyond pride guilt and bliss

im sorry i had a lot of shit to un buckle, to no surprise, unbelievable and unpredicable

sat down, she offered me tea and cookies,

her office had a mountain of degrees, fresheners,

the area was happy ever after, look at this info i gather

you know what, i thought this would be hard, but to be honest,

i need some assistance at this current pinnacle

ever since I graduated from one stage of my existence to the next,

i felt like im broken and without purpose, a body of clay and no material

on a clean slate, the website broke down, lets many of full disgrace

though i fully calibrated the fullness of the futuristic term, left me questioning and my body began to squirm

all my friends are in the dust, no one likes me, no ass to fuck or bust

bad bitches had bad days too, who the hell wrote that, did it happen to you

anxiety, megan thee stallion, adrenaline, she's in a good place and as you can see, she wildin

i think all i do is do myself sins, satan has my cerebral, brain damage pending

why is she takin notes, is there something shes not understanding

i wrote a biography on a document with a full-ass bibliography, citing the sources, nailed my english class, bitch, shit i pass

500 followers, 60,000 views, collabs under my experience, discord dms blowing up, i know you can aid, give me a chance

not sure if you can see how she looks at me, welcome smile, what the fuck is happening

she nods, she agrees, she comment, the fuck are yo capabilities, blacks say no therapy, fight the conspiracies

represents what ive been urging for, a quiet peace of mind, immobilized from the hurtful attacks on my present state, make things straight

a solid hour passes, been fighting with a blank wall, we wastin time haven't made progress

if you and grace and honesty do not exist, there is a fact, opposites attract, don't let that shit persist

 

i have a complete body shutdown, the blood circulation ends movement, termination

the temperature at freezing, the sense of self is disappearing, the cold becomes the bold, the skin turns blue from gold

feel faint, left my happy place, didn't see gods presence, lost the faith and grace,

my mother rushed me to the hospital to get a treatment, they said hes having an emotional body paralysis,

did you get help, the question was blasphemous, i wasn't if im being quite honest

i never took the time of my life to get some time to talk, just had to realize, when i fell apart, to the brink, to the edge of my life

i closed my eyes, wind beneath within calmed my nerves, negative swerves, how can i do something before i gets worse

am im stuck in this never-ending curse, it's a exaggeration, but im an adult and its the moment for a real conversation

 

Thank you for your patience.

Musically will see you now.