IS THIS TRULY HOW WE ACTING?

Strange, thought I woke up in a Wraith

When I realize, I'm way too deranged

An exchange for me and you to sustain

I cannot be contained, hit like a train

Nitpick at everythang, I ain't ever ever change

Comin' in like hurricane, you know that we board this plane

I just gotta stay in lane, I have no say in what you say

Girl, hmm, you act like a goddamn fake

Got me willin' to conversate

Too late, had to go contemplate, hey

And you played with my heart like every day, ooh

And I done prayed for this to go away, ooh, yeah

And then you remind me of my rape

But who gives a fuck? That was like when I was 8

Maybe 9, I can't remember, my heart will break

And my heart will ache, yeah

And we had this debate twenty thousand times a fucking week

You don't wanna admit that you wanna leave

You wanna stick around 'til you lose belief

In everything I say or do

I knew it was just fake to you

I gave you love, I had to make it true

Then you fucked up, made me put the blame on you

Hmm, she say, "Well, shame on you"

But it's not my fault that you make me wanna rain on you

Choppa got the guns, it might bang on you

Choppa want some fun, it might rain on you

Choppa really wantin' some, so it gon' put the fakes on you

I put my views on you, you put the blame on me

I done tried everything for you to stay with me

But what is the point if it's a shame on me?

And I'ma win this game if it means you hatin' me

But I don't really know where you're takin' me

Got me runnin' through the motions, puttin' that pain on me

And it's painin' me to see you changin' ways

And I feel like there's no point in changin' me

But the world, the world put that blade on me

Gonna try and fuck around, then the words you say to me

How can I stay true when I fucking hate you?

How can I blame you when I cannot face you?

How can I shame you when I'm apart of the shame, too?

How can I love you when you fucking hate me?

How can we be friends when you will not save me?

'Til the very end, I'll fucking stay 'round Brady

And you don't wanna make no amends, you hate my guts

Then you take my love and fucking break my trust

Lil' girl wan' make it bust, I feel like we is not makin' love

I know you hatin' us, but girl, I hate this love

I'm fucking breaking trust just to stay in love

How am I gon' live without you, my bitch?

I can't find no girl, I'm just losin' it

And you say it don't revolve 'round me

But you the reason why.. everyone doubt me

 

But what's a life when you have no key?

When you have no one not even yo' G's?

How can I live when they all wan' beat my ass

I just had to go and say, "Then go ahead, leave my ass"

Was hopin' mama would leave my dad

Nah, he was a bitch, he made her see his views

And I can't really stand bein' you

And I can't really stand seein' you, no

And your friends, they faker than Deejay was

So what's a game of love without faking love?

And you just want me dead, you say, "You're changin' us"

And I had a change of heart, 'til you went and started breakin' us

You was breakin' hearts, you was pullin' cards

The fuck am I 'posed to do when you broke my heart?

And I choke so hard, and you broke my car

And my car broke down, in the road, not so far

And girl, you say thangs, 'bout me and 'Mar

But what do you say when everyone hates your friends?

And I know I said some bad comments

Switchin' up like trends, watch how the light bends

I lost all of my strength, I cannot find friends

I will just die red, girl been in my head

I cry in my bed, 'til the day I end

You say it's my fault, I say it's yours, too

I just want more, I just want more, too

You say you love me, but I know you hate me

You sayin' you've changed but you haven't changed me

You say that you trust me yet you're hangin' wit' AJ

Got me outta my mind, it's not a-okay

Cup of OJ, yeah, feelin' like I'm Kobe

Put me on replay, watch how we sway

Got me suicidal, outta my mind, so we pray

And you made me fucking decay, decay

Never thought yo' ass would betray

Now I'm fucking stuck in replay

And I feel like we on relay

Suicide, put me on display, and I know we have a delay

She gon' drive me me so cray cray

Got me feelin' like I may may

Shoot a lil' bitch 'cause we don't play, play, yeah, hmm

Twenty different thangs you worried 'bout

And I wake up real early now, yeah

And you made me feel like I got what I deserved 'bout now

But I know it's just a lie, can we work this out?

This ain't workin' out, tears be burstin' out

Tears be burstin' down my fucking face

And you got Birkin now, you took that Birkin out

Said, "I deserve this now" and then you burned me down

And I'm hurtin' now, I've been hurtin' loud

You wanna turn me out, then turn me 'round

Lil' girl wanna swerve me out, I'm poppin' them Perkies now

I really need to calm it down, but the world wanna burn me out

I light up like a candle, then burn out

Suicide, more than I can handle, will it work now?

I'm tryn' be perfect, you say I am worthless

Bitch, this is a circus, what even is my purpose?

Doin' acrobats, it's me versus the verses

Me and you wrote back when we was nervous

At yo' service, yes, your Highness, I will unearth it

I can't trust nobody beyond they surface

We did a great service, but now it's worthless

Was I ever worth it? I prolly wasn't, you want a new person

You want a new version, you closin' them curtains

I'm livin' suburban, workin' as my condition worsens

But life is a burden, fo' certain

I'll try my hardest to keep on workin'

Despite these circumstances, I feel uneven

I'm barely breathing, I've barely eaten

I am not even sleeping, I'ma pull up to yo' region

Fuck you and boy Stephen, you did so many treasons

For absolutely no reason, now your ass be leavin'

I'm fightin' my demons, they left me so beaten

And every damn season this happens, this happens

Tryna keep balance with my actions

Tryna ease all my damn habits (all my damn habits)

Sleepin' with dragons, bitches so maddened

My heart be blackened and mama is saddened

Fuck all of this shit, not what I imagined

I smoke a damn blunt act like it never happened

 

Is this truly how we acting? Truly, truly, how we acting?

Truly, truly, how we acting? Can we fix this? Make it happen?

Truly, truly, how we acting, is this truly how we acting?

Is this, is this, is this, is this, truly how we acting?

Oh!