I wonder

I wonder if one day you will say that you care, you say that you love me

'Cause I think that you're the angel of my dreams, take it to extremes

That's what love is and it seems like you're detaching yourself, disassociating

And I'm just sitting here thinking: "How did we ever get to this point?" Like

 

Promise that you'll sing about me in your next song, publish it your album

'Cause I never thought that I would get here, honestly, and I fear

You don't love me like you did yesterday

 

A peace of mind, I'm behind on what's really important

My mind is really distorted, I find nothing but trouble in my life

Catch up to the routine and I'm getting fucking tired

Blur the line and now I'm inspired, I aspire

 

I love living my life in the spotlight, I'm in heaven when I'm posing under those flashing lights

When I ride, it's a murderous rhythm and outside became pitch black, I'm done living like this

I guess that's the price you pay, that's the price of fame, that's the game

No wonder why all these celebrities are being driven insane

 

I wonder if one day you will say that you care, you say that you love me

'Cause I think that you're the angel of my dreams, take it to extremes

That's what love is and it seems like you're detaching yourself, disassociating

And I'm just sitting here thinking: "How did we ever get to this point?" Like

 

I wonder if I'll ever discover a passion like you and recover other than

Singing songs about my personal life and all my romantic relationships

Just promise me you'll tell this story when you make it big, if you remember me

Which you probably won't, but in the case that you don't, fuck you anyways (fuck you!)

 

But I doubted your ignorance how could you ever just put her on blast and shit

And somehow you still did, such a fucking ignorant, but whatever

I'm exhausted, but fuck that "Sorry for your loss" shit if I never lost it

And if you have a album date, just make sure I'm not in the song, fuck it

 

I'll never fade away, I know my fate, I'mma get it or die trying, that's it

You lying to these motherfuckers, talking about you can help 'em

You need to go to a rehab instead of acting like a victim

Let me drop here some wisdom or the address of a double-A meeting

 

I wonder if one day you will say that you care, you say that you love me

'Cause I think that you're the angel of my dreams, take it to extremes

That's what love is and it seems like you're detaching yourself, disassociating

And I'm just sitting here thinking: "How did we ever get to this point?" Like

 

Sometimes I look in a mirror and ask myself: "What are you gonna do today?"

And I don't mean it in a good way, pondering over if I should get some botox or not

Gotta stay in with the new, not fade with the old, I gotta be bigger and bold

Maybe if I write a few more songs, it could leave me out there, exposed

 

I know it's long gone and that magic's not here no more, this ain't the shit you call home

And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the tee-ball team, well that's sweet

You seem to always seem to be the victim because you seem to never learn

What the fuck you expect me to do? Feel bad for her? You hurt mother! Uh, okay?

People say I should be converted when I listen to her music, like is this a religion?

 

Ice cream, ice queen, that's how you describe me

Live stream, I'm sweet for the highest bidder

I mean, I'm mean, that's what you think

But again, that's what YOU think

 

Not the crowds (No)

They stay loud (Yeah)

They're hyped (Oh)

What's that? (Hell yeah, hell yeah!)

 

I wonder if one day you will say that you care, you say that you love me

'Cause I think that you're the angel of my dreams, take it to extremes

That's what love is and it seems like you're detaching yourself, disassociating

And I'm just sitting here thinking: "How did we ever get to this point?" Like

 

You're a bitch, a big bitch

You're not shit, no way

You're a bitch, a big bitch

You're not shit, no way

 

You're a bitch, a big bitch

You're not shit, no way

You're a bitch, a big bitch

You're not shit, no way