The Frontier

Depression has been consuming me

The fumes have been ignited in me

I've been slowly been in the dark it's lonely

I've started isolating myself

 

It's very lonely, I'm gonna fucking kill myself

I boldly wish I could take it back

Wish my uncle never passed

The struggle is intense, Ive gotta get a grasp

 

I slowly drift away from this reality

I don't know, it's been heavenly

I don't know if its black or white

I see rainbows and the moonlight

 

I feel like a sad person that pretends to be happy

I feel misunderstood, people don't know whats happening

I've been through so much, people think I'm just acting

But I'm not acting, I just needa breakthrough the trappin

 

I've tried taking pills, that aint happening

Pills will eventually break me, and I'll start acting

If I start taking pills this could get smackin

I will drown away instead and thats not happenin

 

This pain and suffering is killing my brain

I need a new chain, to deal with the pain

I needa maintain, before I go insane

Theres gotta be a way to explain

 

I need a relief of this pain

Maybe I'll increase my mundane

Maybe I'll watch endgame

I need a new way to sustain

 

After my dog died I drowned in tears

But I still went to my football game crying in fear

My teammates were dear they helped me in this frontier

We won that game, because we persevered

 

I love my peers, my teammates helped me in the darkest of times

There near and deer to my heart I love them like

I found my way through the darkest times

I live a happy life now everythings fine