idiot.

'Cause you know I was being an idiot, it wasn't hard to tell

I was tryna be serious, but I was under a new spell

Now I know you furious, I went through Hell

I knew I was curious, stuck in this blue shell

Tryna be mysterious, I took two L's

Now I know you hear me out, you fell

'Cause you know I was being an idiot

 

I'm a human being, fightin' all my demons

One wrong move and society preaching

One wrong fact and then they get to teaching

Browsin' the internet, am I fucking dreaming?

None of this can be real, am I fucking sleeping?

Now I know you can't heal, ever since I was cheating

I don't know how to feel, I just feel defeated

Haven't ate a meal due to how I was treated

I'm starin' at the ceilin', regretted how I cheated

And these texts get real heated

Never knew you were the one I needed

Can we keep this a secret?

Can you believe it? Demons I was seein'

Vomittin' in a bucket, ain't eating

I just feel like screaming

Why can't we all be even?

'Cause everything has a meaning

But this jumbled mess we call life got me believing

That I'm not worth it, that I'm worthless, and better off leaving

And I tryna be perfect, but it ain't working, I was scheming

You wanted Birkin, I was hurting, I was bleeding

Now I fucking work it, still learning, secrets we keeping

And you know I'm yearning, bitch better learn it

I'm burning, tables be turning

You know I was serving my time in prison

You visited me everyday, gave me visions

Then I got out, tried to change the life I was given

But it didn't work out, I burnt out, I was a coward, a chicken

Now tears 'boutta burst out, I hurt now, why won't they listen?

Tables gon' turn now, look how I turned out, whippin' shit in the kitchen

You know I be burnt out, turnt now, I've risen

Fucking up like Bürk now, tryna do business

Yeah, I get too damn religious

I just wan' love for Chirstmas

Lil baby, I want kisses

I want hugs even if I'm vicious

Let's discuss my eternal sickness

Gotta adjust to what I just witnessed

I fucked up, beggin' for forgiveness

I lucked up, that's a plus if you get it

Now you makin' a fuss, in a rush, sipping and tripping

Fucking up, what it was, how we was living

Grab the brush, tell you to hush, I'm sickened

You called me a cunt, I smoked a blunt, oh no, you didn't

You had to front, I had to stunt, now we super distant

Wanted to be loved, on the hunt, for someone who'd listen

Stunned, shunned, who you isn't?

Gunned, ruined my fun, imprisoned

Fucked, fucked, I sucked in an instant

Trust, trust, what's trust? It's different

Bust, bust, I'm a bust, I did it

Is it love or lust, love or lust? Will it even make a difference

You broke my trust, ran it up, persistent

Why we love? Why we trust? I keep my distance

Like what the fuck? Eyes close shut, got resistance

Buck it up, fuck it up, makin' decisions

Run it up, fun it up, fuck my existence

I get these visions of you with someone fucking different

It drives me insane, how I should've listened

I'm diminished, ain't even finished

This is not what I envisioned

 

'Cause you know I was being an idiot, it wasn't hard to tell

I was tryna be serious, but I was under a new spell

Now I know you furious, I went through Hell

I knew I was curious, stuck in this blue shell

Tryna be mysterious, I took two L's

Now I know you hear me out, you fell

'Cause you know I was being an idiot

 

You are still the same you were a week ago (week ago)

You said I was creepin' though

Why ain't you believed me though?

I be seein' though, it's just me being me, yo

I try to make you feel important

You got me fucked up in the mornings

Rain be pouring, life so boring

I should've listened to my friends warnings

I fucked up either way, haven't been the same since

I ain't the same prince, yeah, yeah

Violence, we love violence

Fuck confidence, love silence

Now I'm offin' it, you silent

I be copin' it, ego giant

I shine like a diamond

Lately, I've been shining

Hoes know I am a tyrant

Bitches know the world is my island

Oh, I get real violent, when I am in crisis

I be like Isis, feelin' really righteous

I got an A minus, leave hoes lifeless

I walk around super mindless

Your love, baby, your love is priceless

And I know you hear me, so show some kindness

I was the nicest, you was the finest

You was the sweetest, I was the meanest

And now we timeless, feelin' like Linus

You know I care for you, your highness

I do what I do, yeah, even if you 'on't like it

Violent, socials on private

Now y'all hoes quiet

What happened to that riot?

Guess y'all decided

To forget it, but y'all got me bad-minded

I ain't even fucking invited

Now me and you divided

Why is it that I'm so blinded?

Why is my ass not excited?

Without you, I got arthritis

Yeah, I'm walkin' 'round headless

You know I am a menace

You precious even when you jealous

I know back then I was so damn reckless

Now I've changed, bought you a necklace

You an angel, leavin' me breathless

The way you love me leaves me senseless

I need to get back to my senses

Feeling like I'm so damn restless

I know damn well you in Texas

Hanging with your friends who need a dentist

Might as well call up The Bentist

I be in my own mind, eatin' breakfast

I was destined to be the freshest

Make yo mood shift, you was destined

To love me, uh, that's what I just mentioned

I ain't ever questioned

Hoes know when I'm gone for 2 seconds

It's chaos, that's why none of us indepedent

Wanna take the day off, I don't feel threatened

Work done pay off, I am a legend

 

'Cause you know I was being an idiot, it wasn't hard to tell

I was tryna be serious, but I was under a new spell

Now I know you furious, I went through Hell

I knew I was curious, stuck in this blue shell

Tryna be mysterious, I took two L's

Now I know you hear me out, you fell

'Cause you know I was being an idiot

 

I'm witty, yeah, fifty fifty

Yeah, you so damn pretty

You always say you fucking busy

Or you're out of the damn city

And it makes me feel so shitty

But when you come around, I get tipsy

I get dizzy, I feel pity

Come around me, baby, come with me

You know I be like Missy

Now you actin' pissy

But it's okay, you can't get me

Uh, you tryna fucking forget me

I know you ain't forgive me

But I fucking forgive you

I ain't wan' forget you

I be in the jet, war with you

You know I got a score with you

I don't feel sore with you

I got real worn with you

My heart got torn with you

I know we fucking diss each other like Bigshoot

But it's fine, 'cause I miss you

And I ain't ever wanna diss you

No more, uh, I just wanna kiss you

For sure, uh, you know I wanna be with you

No more will I ever doubt you

For sure, I'm nothing without you

No more will I talk shit 'bout you

For sure, yuh, for sure, huh

 

'Cause you know I was being an idiot, it wasn't hard to tell

I was tryna be serious, but I was under a new spell

Now I know you furious, I went through Hell

I knew I was curious, stuck in this blue shell

Tryna be mysterious, I took two L's

Now I know you hear me out, you fell

'Cause you know I was being an idiot