Back Stabber

Intro

 

Im alone with my pain

That shits driving a sane man insane

 

Chours

 

Im done with this life cause its nothing but pain

I swear theres no one to shelter me from this pouring rain

Lost in my ways tryna cope but the outcome is the same

So I light another blunt and hope

And hope it all goes away

 

Verse

 

But nothing's seeming to change

The people you though cared didnt stay

Now your in your room,alone,crying

Begging for someone to hold you

But keeping it quiet cause you know their gonna say I told you

 

You tell people about yourself but no one truly knows you

And the shit that your going through

I often catch myself in my head

Contemplating life thinkin will it ever reach a end,

Thinking will I ever catch a break

Thinking will I ever ride in that Rayth

 

Will I ever fuckin be okay

I cry in the bed that I lay

I take everything into to consideration and the words that they say

Its not getting stabbed in the back that hurts the most

Its when you turn around and see the person whos holding the knife

That shit just hurts

 

Its like no one see my fucking worth(worthless)

Im steady edge surfin

Bet none of ya'll heard of that shit

You hear this man talking get a load of him

Its like he's talking in tounge

No one gets it

Its jibberish

 

In my dreams thats the only place I reminsce

Stuck in a vast abyss

But even more im stuck in my thoughts

Self harm mixed with the drugs

To me its a bitter bliss

I cant fine happiness in this world cause its so diverse

 

And dont even get me started on relationships

That shit never works

My life is still in the making

But right now Im still shaking

Lately having panic attacks on the daily

I think Im going crazy

Let the song roll on so I can tell you how Im feeling lately

 

Chours

 

Im done with this life cause its nothing but pain

I swears no one to shelter me from this pouring rain

Lost in my ways tryna cope but the outcome is the same

So I roll another blunt and hope it all goes away

 

Verse

 

Tell me why am I always depressed

It's like Im always feeling pressed

In and out of councinous Im always stressed

I drown out my problems with some drugs and some sex

But even that aint got me feeling correct

Im a fish stuck in a tank with no where to go

With no goal

 

No purpose except to be looked and and made fun of

When will I have a come up

Uh

Its like Im shunned upon

People stuck up my ass like a thong

I cant belive all the people that did me wrong

What did I do to make these night so long

Fuck everybody Imma keep writing my song

Its a struggle to breathe and it aint asthma

 

Im seeing stars like Nasa

Thats another stanza

Why is it the people I cared about the most isnt here

Its like if they stuck around I wouldnt feel my ending being near

I swear to God my depression is getting to severe

My attempts are getting why to close for comfort

Lets count the numbers

1,2,36 times I've tried this year

But I keep riding along like Paul Revere