Hidden Courage (Official Lyric V...

Alright listen...

 

As I grow up I gotta search for the courage that I never had.

Struggle to pull myself out of bed and act like a part of me isn’t partly stressed and sad.

But I’m doing my best or at least I hope I am.

Although I know I am.

 

It’s just hard not to feel scared when you feel unprepared.

As if life gave you an important test to pass.

And most answers you’re guessing at.

 

But the hardest lesson that’s been taught to me since my past until now

is when you have been knocked down to quickly get your back off the ground,

 

because you can’t stay there or you won’t get anywhere.

There is no great man who’s spared.

From their own mistakes and failures

along the way to show who they are and ain’t.

 

The mettle to be better’s a heavy weight to bear.

Not to mention the endeavor to switch out hate for care.

But I’ll never go through life without any traits to share,

so rather than hide from it, I'm choosin face despair.

 

I’m fightin the dark and I’m lightin the spark,

because I’m not givin up even if life will get hard,

or I’m frightfully lost

in my mind and my thoughts.

Watch how I am unstoppable like a Rhino in charge.

 

I don’t think I’m depressed, I just really get so emotionally repressed

with no one to help me get out of my head.

 

So for me I guess, I might take too much time to decompress

or to reassess my options,

 

because there is no reset from the time we spend on this Earth

as people working at least to be decent.

 

But what do you do when you descend

into a downward spiral of doubt and feel as if you’re beaten?

Drowning in a waterless deep end.

 

Your faith fades away and weakens.

You wait for a hand to reach in.

But you’re alone once you’re too deep in.

Until you see a beacon.

 

So you head towards the light, even though there is only a beam left

and progress with every second on your own primary quest

to keep going until you’re finally met with hope.

Which in retrospect is mostly what kept you from giving up when you didn't know just what to believe yet.

 

But the light I saw was God and I asked Him for His help, Yeah.

I was done trying so hard to do everything myself.

Really I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t overwhelmed.

With the amount of fighting in my head that made me feel so unwell.

 

But the amount of strength I got from His word.

It's not something great works ought to have earned.

It’s all about grace that I am preserved.

To embrace all the love that I don’t deserve.

 

My purpose...

Be a light in the darkness.

Renew life in the heartless.

Speak of hope to the lost,

even though I might not

always feel hopeful if I’m honest.

That’s my hidden courage.