Wonder (From The Shelf) feat. Di...

I wonder, I wonder, I wonder

Bet i get like 8 of them, and i will wonder again:

I always wonder why i write, we been down for too long but that's alright,

you like big butts and you cannot lie, what a surprise, wonder why?

heaven is like huh?, always strap so i was alright

 

I sit alone in my room and write every day and every night

searching for that spark to ignite as I look back on my beefs in rap

attacks against people that i've since left in the past

people made it personal, aimed that missile so now i'm the outcast

a wordsmith adrift with a book and pen but no purpose or way to pretend

i'm older so in hindsight, all of those beefs I would readily prevent

I was a young kid surrounded by bad influences, I want to do that kid justice

words are poisonous and can get you lost like a broken compass

lost in a daze and it's foggy so ominous,

I feel i'm losing touch with consciousness

I just want to repent and ask

God for his two cents on what he feels I represent

what does he feel are the goals my time should be spent

was I wrong to act out in self defense?, was I wrong to outcast myself among my friends?

am I wrong or right to give in and drink on the weekends?

these are the questions i'll never comprehend, I should just make amends

pay them back dividends for the lessons they distilled in me like chivalry

i'm a pawn in any and all industry, I work for the money I have

but physically it's breaking me and I have nobody to comfort me

all I have is a pad and pen, a laptop in which my words will spread on the internet

just a way for me to avoid the cigarettes and keep my commonsense

I use to let comments set me ablaze

but nowadays my soul isn't fazed

my muscles lie in wait for conflict to escalate to a point where I can't hesitate

and to the straight jacket I am placed, my mind should be erased with Hydra in it's place

see that is just how I feel,

a man with a past and a present in which happiness isn't apparent

I don't know my next move,

so towards the mountain I steer it till I kick the bucket/

 

curiosity follows through my mind

quickly, wondering, when i shouldn't be worried

don't be afraid of yourself, show your true colors

because you're a wonder

if they judge, it's just because, they don't appreciate your personality

listen to your insides, never far away from closeness,

got something special going on, quite a bonus

all these questions, clouding up your perception

remember who you are, go in the right direction

 

i wonder about my reputation trying to fit in

where the time can go,I'll knock em out lyrically with a beast of a flow

Your lines, better see a physician, what is your mission

i wonder about my life, whether i'm successful or not

Just incase you are ever wondering, 'bout wondering why the sky's blue, and what it tastes like

Studio fifty four if we get the props right, About disaster in the world and

Spent weeks wondering why my brains getting scanned

You know i........ keep wondering why our lives, my city's culture to the game now in existence

My laptop just laying on my desk, wondering what's gonna' happen next

Just asking and looking for answers. the reasons.

Because that booty mad thick behind your juicy ass lips

i wonder about love, does she love me or just because

i always wonder, what happens

The reflections of my mental state,

questioning how i can even operate

But his deferred, and blurred and changed in shapeit's fate, it wasn't my choice to make

Just tell me that i ever meant anything, questioning if i'm crazy or actually bright.

Walter payton mercedez, sweetness in every ride

Who is this g.o.d? why you questioning, Go pop some pills or something

i wonder what my life looks like from a point of view

questioning about my looks everyday

will they make fun of me and judge the words i say?

I'm ripping the shows, hitting the dough, my mind wonders, and my body drags in tow,

Its been a long time comin, i should hang with you, everyone wonders where we gone off to

They know i'm tryna get that montana dough

My mind wonders, and my body drags in tow,

 

curiosity follows through my mind

quickly, wondering, when i shouldn't be worried

don't be afraid of yourself, show your true colors

because you're a wonder

if they judge, it's just because, they don't appreciate your personality

listen to your insides, never far away from closeness,

got something special going on, quite a bonus

all these questions, clouding up your perception

remember who you are, go in the right direction

 

To dream is to live life’s full potential, its special, im the opposite of gentle

And don't perform after him or you might regret, before i make your nose rudolph, special red,

Felatio fetish, broads know me where i live

you want a second chance (sometimes)

Of that one special person who would complete my life,

next level special, the fucking devils vessel

See, there's a war going on and i'm the general

You smell the ounce, i ain't even in ya house yet

Curing depression with my pen's special medicine, nigga start listenin', and what i'm givin' them

wish to start the day all over (maybe yeah)

you don't have a choice between singing, acting, and dance

sometimes you want to be someone else

They even raped her so we blazed they padautomatic shots rang out, on every block

But i get the dough, shit i might splurge on one

I get mine and i bounce like a bad check, before i make your nose rudolph, special red,

-special delivery,

And a nose full of chowder, he's choppin' up all the doubters see

Don’t wanna have me then somebody will, the first time i wrote a clever line it was special

I ain't got time to swag nigga this is monumental

You bet i bring a pencil, cuz my lyrics are so special,

To dream is to live life’s full potential, man, oh man, that was the 24/7 special

 

you got a spark worth mentioning, good skills, great for crowd-surfin'

i'm working on myself, know my own possibility and worth, going to do some work, watch out

 

curiosity follows through my mind

quickly, wondering, when i shouldn't be worried

don't be afraid of yourself, show your true colors

because you're a wonder

if they judge, it's just because

they don't appreciate your personality

listen to your insides, never far away from closeness

got something special going on, quite a bonus

all these questions, clouding up your perception

remember who you are, go in the right direction

 

One upon a time I was in my prime crunching rhymes like overtime

I didn't miss a syllable but the ladder I was unable to climb

I made enemies that slam dunked and shot threes over me

then I had an epiphany to fire back, a maniac is how I tried to act

I let off loose fire until a more skilled writer wrapped my neck in barbed wire,

that man forced me to retire after he set my pad on fire

but best believe i'm a fighter, my pen has a scope and i'm the American Sniper

Chris Kyle of dipping my fountain to the inkwell until my hand bleeds hell

I dispense threats faster than you can light your cigarette

that's the power that a kid has on the internet, interject my mind to your percent

Percocet power in each word I devour, I write to offend but teach all you cowards

now tell me...Was it really easy to get rid of me?

Younger and brasher wouldn't give up, reputation I had to live up

i'm grown older but now i'm a stoic soldier, with blood colder than a cold shoulder

balls heavier than Indianas rolling boulder so best look back on the warnings I sold ya

Lunatic returns but it'll be history in his next written story,

graves turn to ash all because y'all ignored me/

 

what happened?, how he wrecked?, i know it hurt but life's not perfect

If i should die before i wake, whats it gonne take

He got a wife, ex-wife, and a baby mother, So as i ponder in musical notes i take a wonde

i'm still standing at pinnacle, i'm like roots, you a new shovel