Don't really want to go

I think I was too real for these niggas

I don't really know myself though

Can't speak through tears sorry

 

- Chorus -

 

I acted hard all to your face

But I was just putting on a show

I couldn't find myself in this place, I get lost in the thoughts of tomorrow

I just might end it all now

Or procrastinate til tomorrow

Cause I ain't really like living life without you, Drown myself in my sorrow

I got a clip with one bullet like a mutiny

Hollow tip grill, take a shot of purple hennessy

I really hope they understand my legacy

Cause I told myself I really don't want to go

 

- Bridge -

 

But I guess I can't stop now

Taste lead in my crown

Gun to my head, let it go now

Inside my heart is the breakdown

 

- Verse 1 -

 

I really only write this music to keep from killing myself tonight

I'm getting sick and tired of people telling me to "calm down, everything's going to be alright"

I can't get myself back together without her, I can't just be alright

This is an uphill battle with depression and it feels like I'm losing the fight

 

I've been losing pieces of myself everyday since I was 13, I already had a record

And for the record, I was writing back then but my vocals, yah they were checkered

With these sad lyrics I switched to as soon as I lost her, yah she'll be remembered

Lost and found bar there, but it doesn't matter when your wrists get severed

 

It really don't matter trust me

I just want her back for real for real

I hope she hears this one

 

- Chorus -

 

I acted hard all to your face

But I was just putting on a show

I couldn't find myself in this place, I get lost in the thoughts of tomorrow

I just might end it all now

Or procrastinate til tomorrow

Cause I ain't really like living life without you, Drown myself in my sorrow

I got a clip with one bullet like a mutiny

Hollow tip grill, take a shot of purple hennessy

I really hope they understand my legacy

Cause I told myself that I really have to go

 

- Bridge -

But I guess I have to go now

I shed a few tears, watch them flow out

Back to back loss, where the fuck is the win now?

 

- Verse 2 -

 

Straight off the chorus, into the verse, but I failed the deep-dive

I felt like I had lost my way, like a bee too far from the bee-hive

And all my friends are forsaken, like Destiny 2, need a revive

Ya'll don't understand me, but when I hit the stage, ya'll vibe with my strife

 

But there is pain inside and I don't show it

I was traumatized, cause my eyes were opened

To world of lies, and pain, for a moment

I thought I was saved by her, but turns out I was choking

 

On her love

But it became my drug

overdosed when it came to love