i'm not suicidal, i'm just hurt ...
• Written by Lil_Ice_WOD
Not suicidal
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I'm not suicidal, im just tryna
Live a life that seems so homicidal
Sometimes i find myself in a spiral
Back to back lies like denial
Looking for a lil revival
Maybe someone to make my phone line dial
Maybe someone to await my arrival
I was looking for a certain person though
I wasn't really trying to be that person though
There is always a side of you that you don't show
A part of you that's dying trying to see tomorrow
A part of you you rip out so you feel so hollow
Tips or the point of the matter what's the subject
I'm not tryna vent to you so let me suggest
You stop trying to force it out of me before I object
Its a courtroom trying to converse with a concept
Last time I checked
You weren't there when I had to protect
My heart from the people trying to hurt me
Now I pray no one hurts me
Because they had me bleeding out screaming
I couldn't see through the lies they were scheming
They told me I wouldn't get where I'm dreaming
I had to fight for the meaning
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I'm not suicidal, im just tryna
Live a life that seems so homicidal
Sometimes i find myself in a spiral
Back to back lies like denial
Looking for a lil revival
Maybe someone to make my phone line dial
Maybe someone to await my arrival
I was looking for a certain person though
But the right people don't exist
They're stuck in dreams, so you have to resist
The urges, telling you to use your discernment
Yes I use pills I call it my deterrent
Keep the wrong ones away
I'm just trying to see another day
My debt is piled up the devil wants me to pay
I don't know what else they want me to say
I don't know how much longer I have
The devil at the door now I'm under attack
After going through hell, I'm tryna to make my way back
To the place I want to be at
The process has me looking for scraps
A painful life take a second glance
The only one I could live with a heartbeat fast
I want to be home where the love songs last
But I can't make it there so I have to relapse
Restart the journey, the process won't be fast
The pain is enough to kill me
But I refuse to live in the past
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Lil_Ice_WOD
Member since September 9 2021