Autism

I don't know

Why I feel so alone

I'm so far gone

I am so far gone

And I

Don't know why

Maybe I am autistic

All my friends know I'm just a statistic

Chasing my dreams, they're not realistic

Thinking abt my family, I miss them

2 many haters, I can't list them

Take all my thoughts and shift them

I'm just stuck in my mind

Too far in,

I'm impossible to find

I miss the ones I could call mine

They don't want me anymore

Yuh, it's about time

I'm just here making shit rhyme

Blackouts, flashbacks, my mind goes as blank as paper

Will I make it? I'm not sure

Painkillers don't work, I need a cure

I'm so apart from this world

Tell my mom I'm sorry that I like girls

And tell my brothers I wasn't okay

And it's all fucked up, down to the day

And ask my mother

Why did she leave me?

Tell my dad, Was I too needy?

Ask my uncle,

Why not come see me?

I'm sorry, I didnt mean to get in my feelings

Ask my aunt, yuh, Why did she have to die?

I just wanna know why

 

(Sharktooth)

Sittin' here i'm not gonna lie

i am afraid of life

but not afraid to die

i feel like my life has been a lie

i'm bored so i'm sittin' here making all these rhymes

i'm sorry if i'm wasting your time

just listen to my raps for a dime

people call my music trash

but that was the past

plus time goes super fast,woah

sometimes i get a weird feelin',

it feels like i'm not even livin'

i just stay outta people's way

and somehow i would not ruin their day,okay

people be ruinin' my vibe

i'm just tryna have a good time

have a good vibe

i just want to live my life

someday,i wish to just live to 100

but not in this world, where there's crimes and gunnin'

i be scared when i hear fireworks

because it sounds like gunshots so i start duckin'

sometimes i feel like a dissapointment

like i am nothin'

i feel like ima lose it

my life never has a conclusion

i'm in confusion

i can't sleep

girl broke up wit me

dreams lucid

i know these rhymes sound stupid

but listen to my music

 

(Yodii Conclusion)

 

Yuh, I think I'm autistic

Chasing my dreams they are not realistic

Come to school every day, gotta deal w/ bitches

Playas breaking my heart, I need stitches

My mind is lost,

Or is it?

I'm so alone, why not visit?

I'm not tryna be in my feelins

So im not finna be specific

Ask me how im doin

Im doing terrific

Only my real friends know im not

They persisted

Insisted

I shut them all out

I don't have a purpose, what is life about

Wanna scream wanna shout

My head is in the clouds

All these voices in my head get loud

Please shut them out

 

I think I'm autistic

My dreams aren't realistic

I am

just

another

statistic

 

(Its Yodii)

(Its Sharktooth)