No turning back

I'm starting to shut down,

it's been quiet without you around,

my mind has been running,

with thoughts about you, i've lost count,

 

i wish you would call me,

at 3 in the morning,

without a warning,

and tell me you miss me,

and you wish you could kiss me...

 

Am i the only one,

feeling these feelings,

unable of healing,

scared of leaving,

unsteady breathing,

silent, but screaming,

wishing I'm dreaming.

 

Now i'm in too deep,

can't fall asleep,

all you want is weed,

that's all you ever need,

I wasn't enough,

and I'd never be,

I still wonder,

how I didn't see,

you were blind when it came to me.

 

Deep down i knew we won't make it,

we made it way too complicated,

and even tho i knew i should hate it,

I still wouldn't trade it.

 

I wish you'd have called me,

at 3 in the morning,

without a warning,

and told me you missed me,

and you wish you could've kissed me...

 

Am i the only one,

tired of living,

always overthinking

head cant stop spinning,

My phone has been ringing

for the past 20 minutes,

but I'm not picking up.

I'm tired of fixing everyone up.

Now I'm gonna lie in the grave I've been digging up.

Leave me alone, there's no turning back, I'm giving up.