Blue Flames

I don't care but I love a lot... barely above the thoughts

Of spilling a hundred shots to kill my dark

Fickle heart, brittle, it starts, shattering

simply scarred, never getting far, every bar does the battering

Head is hard, stubborn, I'm scattering

trying to fix the damaging, keeping my guard, instead of scampering.

I don't mean it, but the demons guide

deep inside, I don't want to keep alive, bitterness that eats the mind

I need a redesign... I want to redefine,

What it means to be who I am, I want to be divine

And not aphotic, consumed by psychosis

broken, losing focus, truly hopeless,

Frozen, in diseases, feeling weakness

I don't want to be this, In all of my releases

Keep a secret.. I'm suicidal

Reading through the Bible, searching for true revival.

The world burns but I'm practically the cause of it.

My humanity is often kept

away, but insanity has claws, and it's hard to step away

Can't separate, from its hold, and it devastates

Deeply penetrates, the stoic armor that I own

So it's darker in my soul,

I'm so alone and every bone inside my body is already cold

darkness has a heavy hold

travelled down so many roads

I don't want to let it go...

damn.. and I already know, I am never gonna let it go

I don't want to die,

Yet, I keep getting haunted by, these suicidal thoughts and their authorized

Feeling lost inside

pain is optimized, yet with all my cries, it's like a lullaby

they'd rather sleep, my agony, discarded

I'd rather be, happily dead then be a part of

A world, where the tragedy's led by all the rulers

crave connection through computers, I'm such a stupid loser

Abuser, and narcissistic, hard and wicked

Heart is hardened liquid, frozen stiff, it's really hard to miss it

 

And I'm tired of being cold

I'm tired of the feelings I evoke

I'm tired of the evil in my soul

it's time for me to lose control.... x3

 

My suicide is for planet

You'd be better off without me, when my heart is made of granite

I don't think you understand it,

I'm a mess and truly damaged...

Such a savage, Everything I do is met with panic

the damage I cause is deadly

God damn it, I can't evolve when I'm practically left to crawl

my apathy gets involved

and fabric of all I am is so tattered

Resolve is shattered

the havoc inside my heart causes static, it's automatic

Combustion of all I am,

Immolating the flesh

Don't really care if I'm dead, the chaos inside my head

spreads just like a virus,

I wanna meet my Osiris

My mind is so frail and vacant, can't take it, I sit in silence

Defiance is stripped away

Different day, same pain, the blood boils and then fades, my sick brain

Feels nothing but big shame, it maintains

this sad energy, can't tame, all the blue flames

 

I'm tired of being cold

I'm tired of the feelings I evoke

I'm tired of the evil in my soul

it's time for me to lose control.... x2