Drugs

Verse 1: Takin drugs, Yuh It's all on me. Uh sippin lean, I tell myself I'm not a Fein

No fact Its not true, But I refuse to lose, Look me up I'm in the news

Ye I don't fuck with that deuce shit (yeah) But I'm still trippin

If I OD then they say I went missin (Yeah) I'm Guessin

Stop wit the questions OD on my couch now, Lookin for drugs and Im sad now,

All I can find is tear after tear, Devil whisperin in my ear,

Crying now its been a flood over the years uh, I'm losing my mind, pain in my brain

I'm going insane

No good weather its constant rain, I cant stand this pain uh

My ex told me told me to go to hell Said, Bitch I'm already there, I been waitin here

I'm a rapper, Like Shakespeare Not a Poet ye I already know it

I'm just hopin for a better year. uh

Verse 2: I'm a lonely lost boy,

Seen a lot of shit and I'm only 14, I would never wish

For somebody to see their own family, End up in the Local Obituary yeah

All alone by myself, At night I'm a danger to me No one else,

Scary thoughts flood

My head, Thinking to my self, Just one more sip or another pill

I could end up dead, Like the fallen legends

"Lil Peep and Mac Mill" The drugs are way too Familiar

I was searching for a high that couldn't provide, Uh I call the plug cause they supply

I've seen some shit that wish I didn't see, Body laid out pale dead from an OD, Been there done that,

Thank god I'm still alive, But barley intact yuh, I was willing to die for something so unnecessary

That's gon be temporary, As soon as its all over

You forget what happened. Some minutes of being sober and your right back at it,

I didn't wanna admit it but I was an addict, I quit it all and started rappin

But I seen to many people die, And end up in caskets

Yuh I finally had it, I'm tired of seeing myself relapse

On these drugs, Not knowing when to say enough is enough

This shit gets tough, I'm tired of all the pain and the sorrow

I'm tired of not knowing if I'll see people after this, Or if ima be gone,

Because I cant control this addiction, Livin Reckless

Thinkin that the drugs will help me live Stressless, There is no point to use the substance

Once my high is over. Life gets real again

The feelings I had before Ima start to feel again, I was poppin the pills and

Sippin the Hennessey, In attempt to not experience my true feelings

This is just the Beginning, To be honest, I actually believed it was a healing, I was throwing my life away,

Lucky to be alive today. Ayy, I had one mindset, When I wanted to stay high and reach the moon, "If I separate soon its worth it

because the drugs are healing my internal wounds" I was livin life on the edge like I was Immune

To all the consequences that could come from poppin, In my room yeah uh ohhhh

Verse 3: I guess am the lucky one, I'm sorry to all the people who

Already lost they loved ones, I'm just happy I wasn't abusing all the drugs,

Anyone who does drug abuse, Listen up this ones for you

Ye you can change and that's true, Stop popping them pills and

Shooting up heroin just for a thrill, It doesn't last and that's for real

I'm sorry for how you feel, But your not alone, I might be a "King" But I don't Always feel like I'm sitting on a throne.

I was at the point your at, I'm living proof that you can change that. Yah Your addicted so was I, Makes two of use trust me wont lie

I know you feel like no one loves you, that they would rather have you crucified but that is false

I made it past my worst falls, You can too and most of all

You would like to open up and talk but you don't know how or, Got no one on the phone yuh no calls,

When your sober, you start crying and create water falls,

You feel like your too far gone there's nothing you can do to change this

But that's not true, Trust me I understand the pain your going through

You keep saying no one loves you, I wish you knew,

How much that God honestly cares for you, You see I got sober and found a leader to obtain

I'm not an over the top Christian but I sure as hell can relate. Ye you see the problem is people think god is evil

We blame him for the problems that we create as people

Yeah, We got a choice Between Life and Death, and we choose the needle

In the end the consequences prove to be lethal, I promise you can defeat this yuh

Your demons are defenseless, When you known what your doing

You can get past this and start a new beginning, This doesn't have to be the end of your story,

You don't have to think about no longer being around, Cause you have found a new meaning,

I know you can do this cause so have, uh so have I. Goodbye.