Ashamed of Pain

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I need an answer to all the pain

before all the shame comes back again

meeting my maker waiting in vain

before all the pain comes back again

 

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Lord, please bless me these demons eating me alive

Feeling dead and beaten my soul is weakened bleeding again

Shattered imagine of someone who was conceited now defeated

Anger got me depleted feeling like I was cheated

Just a thesis of a complicated man who was mistreated

Saw my whole life shattered into pieces felt the pain Jesus felt

Fell to my knees I always pleaded to get some treatment

Questioning if I can even make it my people needed me the most

Faint calls hearing things like a ghost whispering In the wind

Bad memories keep lingering and flickering like a rerun on a busted Television

Ghosted by images like an empty glimmering desert mirage

Kill my own self like Cobain call it a montage of heck

Not famous living the world all alone with applause

You are not ready to see all the horror that I saw

 

{Hook}

I need an answer to all the pain

before all the shame comes back again

meeting my maker waiting in vain

before all the pain comes back again

 

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I knew when I picked up the pen

Nothing would ever be the same again

Done so much shit I am ashamed of

My name is the only one to be blamed

It's my fault I stole I needed something to sustain me

Inhumane how I was treated left out in the rain

Like carrying the mark of Caine

Able to do anything I put my mind to it but need to refrain from negativity

I don't know what awaits me when I pass on

This baggage weights me down need a place to drop this load

Lord I'm sorry that this package came back so damaged

Got tired and fell of this wagon life so hard you can imagine

Never lost any of my compassion call it karma I'm cashing in

Been through hell I hope to never see it again

 

{Hook}

I need an answer to all the pain

before all the shame comes back again

meeting my maker waiting in vain

before all the pain comes back again