Jus words, jus feels

Soul on fire burning deep within

Praying dat e pain will sanctify my sins

Say we learn by failing , say dat time heals

Bt its been so long n e wound still bleeds

Tears become sweat coz dey come out everytime

Ask m if I'm fyn n I lie everytime

Feeling like I'm drowning ohh man guess its time

For m wallow n let e waters out

Screaming out loud as I let my demons out

Acting all cheeky yeah I let e diva out

Looking all drowsy e devil is out

Losing my conscience e devil is proud

Razorblade on wrists thinkin it better dis way

Or a sharp knife bt it hurts some more dis way

Joy a bridge crossed wen u go e other way

Bt my destination is noted on my hand

Darkness become part of every sunrise

See a smile on my face wat a grt surprise

Promise m heaven, giving myself bribes

Jus to gv m hope, gv m faith for e night

Wen u know its true u totally deny

Tellin m I'm wrong wen I know dat I am ryt

Mind over matter now its matter over mind

Yeah to m matter n u always on my mind

Loud like e big ben bell in my ears

Anger n sadness cutting thru my fears

Cussing like a mad man I don't care who hears

Me holding m back jus cut down on e beers

Stepping on e toes in e boots I can't fit

Know I should be sorry bt I prefer a hit

Look e other way I ain't worth it dat be it

Well I guess so coz u left m incomplete

 

Didn't think you'd leave m with a bullet meant for u

Eyes like a gang boss looking out for u

Talking with e big man a prayer for two

M n u was a package deal dollar for two

Now its buck for one coz e other one is gone

Hiding like I'm one who was in e wrong

Coughing out life as smoke fill up e lungs

Savouring e taste as I am licking my tongue

Moving like a worm funny motion on e kid

Reeking of it all yeah I took off e lid

Sow a fruit of love got some hatred from e seed

Flair even wen he lies damn wat a breed

Smiling after cries coz I'm feeling so relieved

Tired of e sad songs now I want a hit

Dressed in all black like a widow for some weeks

Now life's a memory I feel like I'm deceased

Shouts from e lady like "where hv u been?"

Spending most time jus standing in e wind

Like it blow away e leaves let it blow away my grief

Leave m with nothing jus a vessel to be filled

Day pray to God coz I did wat I forbid

Left e house again n I did wat she forbid

Throwing u all out jus e same way dat u rid

Urself of myself n its funny I get billed

I pay for e sins dat i didn't not commit

I carry a cross so heavy it make m trip

Didn't throw a dagger u hurt thru ur lips

U took a aim at m I knew u wouldn't miss

Crept up on m shook m up like a mugger

Bullet holes on dead u I'm a gunner

Dat jus my thot bt lets about karma

Nah you'll fuck urself u don't deserve karma