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• Written by Sader
Sader's Notes
I don't have depression, this is about people that have experienced it because they lost someone they loved.
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I wish I could be there with you
I wish you woulda thought it through
I really wish you hadn't left
But you did it's for the best
I don’t even know what’s happening
Every now and then I’m battling
Depression because of this sickening
I’m hurting and I've been suffering
I really wish this would end right now
Depressions done enough just take a bow
Use to love the pain, can't take no more
Depressions winning I don't know the score
Sometimes depression comes and goes
When it comes my skin feels 100 bolts
The saddest part, I'm not afraid of dying
But when I do it's not 911 I'm dialing
When I call please pick up the phone
I wanna be with you I don't wanna die alone
I know some days I feel so afraid
Of losing you but that's the price I've paid
So it’s true, when all is said and done
grief is the price that we pay for love?
I’m sitting here waiting for death to come
Because right now I feel so numb
I wish I knew what happiness was
Because right now all I have is scars
I think you know where this is leading
I hope that all I’m doing is dreaming
You know I do want the pain to go away
And then I hope my true love stays
Cause everyone I find it it disappears
And when I cry I have no tears
All these fake smiles are killing me slowly
If you really loved me why didn’t you just tell me
All of this time I’ve been waiting for you to tell me
As time went by I needed someone to hold me
You can’t trust none of these dudes these days
Cause as soon as you do they give your heart away
Us girls everyday we be praying for forgiveness
Asking god what’d I do for this to happen
Every single night I told god that I was here for you
Praying for your soul praying that I’d stay there for you
But I wasn’t the one who left you walked up out the door
You had me begging on my knees you had me crying on the floor
Without you in my life it couldn’t mean shit to me
Just wanting to end it cause you’re not here with me
wish I could’ve been better but I can’t do shit these days
With this pain in my chest I’m just tryna change my ways
When I said I loved you you said you loved me too
Guess you didn’t mean it you had me looking like a fool
I’m tryna remember all the things that I did wrong
For you to leave this way I knew we wouldn’t last for long
Almost a year of loving you and it all just went to waist
Now it’s hot long showers thinking how we weren’t fate
Remembering all the memories that we had shared together
Believing that we were true love and that we would last forever
How am I gonna love myself when nobody loves me at all
It’s like hanging off a cliff, you know you’re gonna fall
Can I put my feelings on hold I don’t wanna hurt no more
I just wanted to be loved that’s all I was asking for
I remember you saying “I would die for you” “I would lie for you”
“I would do anything you ask me to”
why’d you break me to pieces? Why didn’t you tell me the truth
So now because of you all my thoughts are negative
I never knew you could make my feelings so sensitive
You didn’t dare to look me in my eyes when you lied
You pretended i was forever yours and you were forever mine
What you said to all those people did you think of me when you lied?
I should’ve got the hint when I texted there was no reply
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Sader
Member since February 22 2021