My Pain

Yeah one day I was just cutting my pain away I'm so fucking grey I just

wanna jump off the edge then one day I went to school and my cut's start's

bleeding this pain is really killing me then my teacher walked up to me and

what is wrong with you then I say why am I pale I feel nothing at all I never

felt so alone I guess I'm just going through a zone where you start feeling

numb I never really felt happy ever since I was young I was always alone

I even got bullied at school when I grew up and got revenge people called

me a monster that was only because no one understands this killing pain

I don't fight for love like my mother does I only fight to stay alive people think

I really care if my parents love me or not I never felt loved from the start I

always felt so alone the only time I didn't feel alone was when I was left to my

suicidal thoughts and my demons telling me to let go of the pain but I ignored

them and I held on to that killing pain my family wishes I would just turn ghost

then one day I got tire of this gossip about being a freak I here it even on the

school grounds and the teachers do nothing they just listen and think wow

so I hopped In the car and drove very far I started to drive fast I felt like I was

racing for my life but life is meaning less when Your just destined to die any way

I hope they look into the mirror and say what have I've done and think about

you daughter that yall barely noticed I stopped the car and checked my bags

for my favorite blade when I found it I started to cut all my pain away I guess

I was born to act and be this way then I thought what would happen If I got Into

a car wreck and died would they care then I says oh well where I was there

was no cars not even one I got back into the car thinking about suicide again

next thing you know I was on the side of the road It was dark and I wanted

to go back home them my demons say there's nothing there for you anymore

so just find another home next thing ya know I took my last breath while talking

to my mom on the phone.