Mercy On My Soul
• Written by MrMatrix
MrMatrix's Notes
I heard Boosie Badazz Ft. Young Jeezy & Akelee - Mercy On My Soul while at work. I felt I had to write something to it. I felt that song deep in my soul
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Lord I wanna know why you ain't bless me
Left my momma crying all night stressing about everything
Living in poverty left her with no money for her children
That made the hate in my own childhood even muddier
Tell me why did that make me feel so unlucky
Tell me why I had to hop on one knee leaking leaving me bloody to meet my children
I felt so crummy being the only one in that apartment with no things no money
Did I have to go through that just to find a part of me?
Pardon when I say fuck that shit I'm still mad about that
Forgive me you blessed me when shit seemed so uncertain
Every night didn't know if I was gonna make out from behind that curtain
I was determined to kill my own self I guess you can call that the seeds we sown
Self-destruction was disgusting went through every emotion like I was stuck in a cyclone
I guess that is what we get when we feel so alone like we the only ones walking on this road
Only took one night for it to go differently but you showed me how much my own mother cried for me
Sorry mom I wanted to be the to provide for you guide you out of so much poverty
Instead, I only lied and failed to apply myself hoping the pain would subside
inside my own self, I felt trapped inside my mind
Steady popping pills to feel normal but appears now that shit could have killed me
I wonder how many nights my wife cried sobbing to herself
While all I thought was how bad I can make it hurt when I stabb myself
Sorry for all the years worth of tears pouring out it's a hard rotten topic
When I had fallen to the bottom you came and got me
You knew where my heart was at and everything I thought and protected my weak spots
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MrMatrix
Member since February 29 2020