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Sing About Me Part 4
- ///verse 13
- march now and something shifted in the temperature of things
- not the weather, something social, something with the strings
- of the blocks particular politics, the rings
- of connection around amara, who she brings
- to what, who shes seen with, who that means, the kings
- and pawns of the bronx social chessboard and the slings
- and arrows of being fourteen and visible, the stings
- of attention you didnt ask for, and someone clings
- to the wrong detail and suddenly the whole thing springs
- a leak,
- devontae. i shouldve clocked devontae.
- older, sixteen, ran with the kids from burnside who stayed
- out past midnight making decisions that decayed
- their futures in real time and devontae had displayed
- a specific interest in amara that shed waylaid
- politely, then firmly and I was the thing that betrayed
- his patience or so the story goes, the tirade
- of male ego dressed in the language of the block, the charade
- of respect when what it really was was, afraid
- of losing something he never had, retrograde
- possession and I didnt know the depth of what Id wade
- d into standing at 161st with a book
- marcus called me friday at 9PM
- Marcus: "yo where you at?"
- Me: "walking to meet amara by the park"
- Marcus:" Which park?"
- Me: "franz sigel. she said she wanted to walk"
- Marcus: "jonah. listen to me. who told you to meet at franz sigel after dark?"
- Me: "She texted me"
- Marcus: "Did she call you?"
- Me: "no she "
- Marcus: "Jonah call her right now"
- Me: "marcus what are you "
- Marcus: "call her. right now while im on the phone. do it.
- ///i dial, it rings, she picks up
- amara: "hello?"
- Me: "hey, were you ,did you text me to meet at franz sigel?
- Amara: "what? no. im at my cousins in yonkers, I texted you like an hour ago that I couldn't come out tonight, you didn't see it?"
- Me: "I "
- Marcus: "dont go to that park, bro. dont go. turn around right now."
- Me: "how did you "
- Marcus: "devontaes boy reef was in ramons bragging. they got your number from, i dont know how
- just dont go "
- ///internal
- and I was already at the entrance to franz sigel
- i was already there
- and I turned around
- and they were already behind me.
- ///verse 14
- i dont remember all of it in sequence ,the brain
- does something with trauma, reorganizes the chain
- of events into something survivable, the pain
- arrives edited, what I remember, the refrain
- of devontaes voice "you thought you was gonna maintain
- out here with her? you thought you was built for this terrain?"
- and the cold of the ground when I went down, the drain
- of the sky above me, lil tjay still playing the same
- song from the apartment window three floors up, the mundane
- cruelty of the city continuing while the domain
- of my specific body was under, and the rain
- starting, february cold returning in march, the vein
- of something ancient running through the borough, the contain
- ment of violence inside the ordinary, the explain
- able and unexplainable simultaneously, the main
- thing I thought, on the ground, was "amara"
- the main thing I thought was "the book"
- the main thing I thought was "okafor."
- architecture. load bearing. what holds.
- i held.
- i held.
- ///verse 15
- i got three brothers. i should explain the architecture
- darius is twenty two, works sanitation, the rector
- of our household in the practical sense, the projector
- of stability in a frame that needed it, protector
- by nature, not performance, the collector
- of every bill, every problem, every defector
- from peace that arrived at our door, the inspector
- of every person I brought around,
- of bad energy before I could name it my director
- when I couldnt direct myself
- kofi is nineteen. different.
- kofi is the one the block sees, significant
- in the way the block measures significance, the brilliantine
- cool of him, the way he moves, the discipline
- of his reputation, guess kofi never raised his voice
- in my memory, not once, just the choice
- he presents you with by existing, the poise
- of someone who knows what theyre capable of, the noise
- he doesnt make is louder than what most people deploy
- and then theres marcus. not blood. but.
- ///internal
- they came to the hospital separately
- darius first, he sat down, looked at my face
- didnt say anything for a full minute
- then said "you know who?"
- I said "devontae. burnside."
- he nodded once. stood up. left.
- kofi came in after. looked at me.
- said "you good?"
- I said "yeah."
- he said "okay."
- he left.
- ///verse 16
- i dont know exactly what happened saturday night
- and im not going to pretend I do, the right
- to that story belongs to the people who were in it and the light
- i have is secondhand, what I know, by the slight
- of monday morning, devontae from burnside had a different profile
- on the block the kind of profile that required a lifestyle
- adjustment, the kind of message the bronx sends meanwhile
- in the language the bronx speaks when words arent worth the trial
- darius came home sunday quiet, ate dinner, said grace
- marcus had a busted knuckle and a look on his face
- of someone whod located something in himself and placed
- it back where it belonged, kofi was kofi, erased
- of evidence, present and accounted for, his case
- resting permanently in the unspoken, the space
- between what happened and what gets said, the grace
- of the Bronx when it handles its own, the embrace
- that dont look like an embrace to anyone outside the place
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