DEFENDER'S RAP

• My thoughts go to waste, my brains a vacant space
• And I'm just waiting to change pace from the rest of our race
• Every word I say's laced, with the urge to erase
• Every memory of me so I can find a new place
• Then I'd cover my face, my personality hidden
• And this time letting people in is strictly forbidden
• Keep that heart off your sleeve wearing it there ain't permitted
• My paranoia's pushed me to a careful form of living
• So I move with this haste, never slowing my rate
• Truth is I'd love to wait and enjoy the life that we're given
• But I can't allow breaks, cause I'm too fucking afraid
• I struggle every fucking day with all these moral decisions
• Avoiding fatal collision, might seem like superstition
• But these rhymes reflect my soul so I make these revisions
• So I can express myself clearly when people finally start listening
• I wanna share the real me this song ain't no myth or fiction
• And maybe when you see the real me you'll still wanna stay
• Take the time to learn some more as more rhymes hit the page
• But if you don't that's okay, at least I'm playing the game
• Cause if I love what I'm doing whether I win or lose it's the same
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• Working day and night, I'm just trying to make it big
• After some rap treasure grab the shovel and dig
• Been coming up with crazy stuff and people say I'm sick
• So I'm playing the game, I think that maybe I can win
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• Working day and night, I'm just trying to get better
• I've been putting my talent, into every single letter
• Been coming up with crazy stuff and searching for fame
• People telling me I'm great, so I'm playing the game
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• I'm swimming up shits creek with a paddle no boat
• Living in a stone castle with a dried up mote
• Facing consequences for every word that I've wrote
• Things turns sour like old milk and I'm just trying to cope
• It's no joke and I'm stressed to say the least
• You'd think I'd be happy that people say I'm a beast
• But that just sets new expectations, so I'm aiming to please
• Working the pen dry till my mind is all out of steam
• But I love impressing upon you all the truth of these raps
• So the effort is kinda worth it and the time that's elapsed
• But life is getting demanding and I feel kinda sapped
• And I'm not sure there's incentive left in me to be tapped
• I'm sick of this crap, and I'm not sure that I can do it
• Used to get perfect attendance now I'm labeled a truant
• It's all influence, I swear to fucking god my life's ruined
• But I couldn't care less because I know we're all doomed
• I got nothing but disregard for this country and this planet
• My own motherfucking family, anything else that life hands me
• You think it's fine and dandy I'm on the brink of insanity
• But I'm already crazy that's why the flow is so uncanny