DEFENDER'S RAP

• Verse one
• I got a tendency to push people away and get ready for betrayal
• Got used to people leaving at a young age so now if they leave I wont hide my tail
• As a young kid I was abused which left me with trauma and numerous scars
• At seven my biological father kicked me out my only comfort was staring at the stars
• Then I found mt love for music so I turn all my pain and troubles into lyrics
• Its been nine years since my father kicked me out but all my trauma still sticks
• Verse two
• My biological father used me for money, sex, and a punching bag, I still hae scars from it all
• My fathers wife let guys beat me, rape me, and just didnt care, to this day the pain is still raw
• The bastard and his wife tore me down mentally to the point I have no self esteem
• My past fucked me up and haunts my dreams to the point I sometimes wake up and scream
• Got used to being degraded so when people complement me I tell them not t lie
• I call my past my demons and I cant forget or let go no matter how hard I try
• Chorus
• I wrote this song for those who suffer from childhood trauma not feel so alone
• The memories will stay but in the end you’ll get stronger and you’ll learn from the past
• I know it hurts its going to but you gotta be resilient and you gotta persevere
• Shit gets worse before it gets better but stay strong you never suffer alone
• Verse three
• People call me beautiful I finally can see the beauty that they see
• But when I look in the mirror I see the man I hate the most staring back at me
• Whenever I see my reflection I say “Holy shit I look just like my fucking dad”
• I learned at seven years old that this world is full of a lot of fucking bad
• I knew gang signs, drug names, and street life before I was five years old
• I learned that money talks and people listen and you have to do as you’re told
• Verse four
• My father and his wife left my life when eleven then shit got kinda tricky
• When I was twelve I threatened and tried to take my life and I was pretty bitchy
• When I was fourteen I cut myself toprove to myself I’m still alive
• Now I’m sixteen and I’m doing great and I’m finally starting to thrive
• I wanna help those who’ve been through a lot and say shit gets better
• Also trying to help with suicidal thoughts not to write their suicide letters