CHALLENGER'S RAP

• Lately I can't sleep at night
• Cuz that's when the thoughts get the loudest
• They start to overwhelm me with scenes of my death
• They start to show me everything I ever failed at
• They start to tell me that nobody cares anymore
• I can't tell the difference between reality and fiction anymore
• Every day is starting to blur together
• I keep telling myself it will get better
• But those words are starting to be empty
• I'm just one step away from falling off the edge
• I'm starting to think my name would look better on a headstone
• Instead of on all these papers
• I can see that everyone around me is having fun
• But I can't seem to find the happiness like they did
• I can't find my meaning in life anymore
• Every time I start to trust someone they leave
• Every time I fall in love my heart gets shattered
• Its a repeating cycle that never ends
• I constantly fight to stay alive
• But I'm starting to think that everyone is better off without me
• I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel
• All I can see is the lies that I trapped myself in
• All I can see is my failure's
• I think to myself everyday that I can make it through this
• I say to myself that I won't end up single
• For the rest of my life
• But now I'm starting to see the sad truth
• No matter how hard I try its all gonna be for nothing in the end
• No matter what I do It doesn't hide the fact
• That I have a heart of stone that nobody can fix
• I guess I'm reaching the end of my run
• I guess this is the end of my life
• I just wish I could have made better choices
• Cuz maybe things would be different
• And I wouldn't be sitting here
• Contemplating about ending my life
• Maybe I would have something worth living for
• But there isn't anything I can do
• Besides change my ways
• And do better in the future