DEFENDER'S RAP

• In lieu of a blew off hat, to rue
• Or to pat, myself on the back
• 'Cause I been doin' this, and I been doin' that
• But this ain't much, and that ain't either
• Cabin fever, bored of the pass-time leisures
• Gettin' motherfuckin' antsy, I need an anteater;
• A woman, to blow my damn wiener ("So no head?")
• I work a lil here, but only 3-day a week-ers
• Shit, if my sitch' weren't as severe
• Still provide, and a penny-pincher
• Just say uh, here
• Just say I'm a 'minimalist,' yeah
• Well hey I've been sober over a year, cheers
• Though these urges be emergin', "How fun would this be with a beer?"
• Seriously, get me out of here
• Wish the sun would come out, and the snow would melt
• Soon as it does a lil, we get another pile
• Just reached 30 degrees and, turned off the heaters
• Now it's negative 13 and, I'm fuckin' freezin'
• How can I touch grass, I can't even see it
• I just wanna step foot, out the threshold, without, seeing my breath cold
• That fresh ol', spring morning air, and hear those
• Birds chirpin' in echo, I wonder
• If they feel like us, like, if migrating ever gets stressful
• Do they get hopeless, do they experience rage
• Wish I could fly free like them, let me out of this cage
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• Yeah I swear I say I love my alone time
• But introverts get lonely too, introverts can feel isolated too
• It fucking hurts, I don't remember the last time I felt exuberant
• Well shit, at least I'm grateful for my gratitude.
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• You know, that feeling when you concealing what's killing you inside
• And just need to somewhere to confide?
• Let me paint you a picture of really, how alone I am
• Who do you share with and cherish in those down times?
• I've dialed the crisis hotline more than my own bloodline.
• Not no one on my side, I had this girl through
• Almost 2 years we were tight, ride-or-die
• Best friends, love of my life
• 'Til surprise, she found a better guy
• Eh, I'll save that for another time