CHALLENGER'S RAP

• In my room writin out my feelings,
• Suicide note yuh thats what ya gettin
• not in my own mind
• its a smile in disguise.
• Ready to die,
• but I tell everyone that I'm fine.
• Cant you tell its a whole chain of lies
• Im dying inside.
• It gets worse at night, huggin my pillow tighter,
• but the thoughts crash in like a roller coaster.
• Everytime I close my eyes
• I picture a thousand things go by.
• Time after time suicidal thoughts,
• Ye im trapped inside my mind.
• Tired of crying myself to sleep at night.
• Heres a suicide note, ma just hold on
• It'll be alright.
• I tried to fight, but I lost
• and this is the cost.
• I thought if I pushed yall away the pain
• would start to fade.
• I guess I was wrong,
• yuh im not strong.
• Ma its gon be okay,
• I pray to see you another day,
• I dont want you to celebrate my birthday
• whats to celebrate when I was Hurtin,
• My demons are always constantly lurkin.
• Im sorry for this suicide note
• Please forgive, please just cope
• Im sorry for taking that rope
• But i got nothing else so i got to go hang from my throat,
• Theres nothing anyone could do for me,
• I was to far gone from the constant abuse
• gotta admit my step dad did have a short fuse
• I feel so lost that i need the noose,
• please forgive yourself,
• dont blame yourself, you didnt kill me
• It was my choice, I love you
• but now its time to go see juice.