DEFENDER'S RAP

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• I "suffered severe damage", but I still managed to persevere, let's be clear,
• I'm a savage; you'd think I disappear, yet somehow I'm still here.
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• I got a split personality, actual versatility, I thematically changed this site; dramatically.
• I got this fighters mentality, legal lethality, actual factuality; I'm sick, I need hospitality...
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• Now enough of the lyrical spiritual miracle shit,
• You laugh at my unbearable pain, driving me to quit.
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• I'm on my own, yeah I'm torn to pieces,
• Don't hit my phone, the kid is grievous and sleepless,
• I give poetical speeches, into I'm speechless, into the shit I say is needless.
• On my own, unknown... while I watch the world fall to pieces.
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• Like damn... I don't understand why everyone I love has to die,
• I act like the man... but I'm the one cradling myself to sleep at night,
• Lost 5 people in a year, but I "shouldn't pout or cry"?
• I should just sigh, and bury all this sadness inside... into I explode...
• Bestowed with a shitload of pain, biological parents left me disowned, I guess they were ashamed,
• On top of that I get exposed, provoked, into I act out; "I should use my brain"?
• As I get dethroned, and constantly think about flushing my life down the drain.
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• Funny thing is, I never seen my real parents... literally ever,
• Don't remember what they look, child services took me when I was two; no longer together...
• I decided to do some research filled with ferocity, my mind was aching from curiosity,
• Found out my mom died 4 years ago; never got to meet her,
• A heroin overdose; she beat beat me, locked me in my room, I was abused.
• I wish she could see me now; I don't know why though, leaves me confused,
• I presumed if I met my biological dad, my heart would be warmer,
• Messaged him on Facebook, received a restraining order...
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• Imagine not knowing the people who brought you onto this earth,
• Imagine getting taken away 2 years after birth,
• In a weird way, at my best, I still feel a bit of my worse,
• I take my pain and suffering, and form it into a verse.