DEFENDER'S RAP

• all of these,
• nights I sit here
• try get my head clear
• try to get this shit done
• knowing that I can’t run
• seeing the shit that I’ve done
• sorry if you got lost
• paused when I thought I was better but never
• seen the scene that I caused
• tossing and turning with burning desire to sell off,
• my possessions that I bought,
• with the guilt that I had sought,
• to drain out of my brain but the rain never stops falling,
• I’m locked inside of the darkness you found me when I was down but never had thought to call me,
• never said you were sorry ,
• I guess I needed some closure,
• I never meant to expose you ,
• but I didn’t see you hiding from the words that splurge out of my mouth when I’m mad ,
• I don’t try to be sad ,
• and I cut all my ties that I once had in the blink of an eye to just put out the fire ,
• I don’t have no desire to question your methods ,
• I’ve dealt with my imperfections collected all my connections objected at your discretion depressed when I see it off but never suspected different,
• ignorant disposition imposing on me I hate, thoughts becoming adjacent from being locked in the basement ,
• of my mind I’m behind on what is really important,
• I can’t see when it’s storming