DEFENDER'S RAP

• im feeling like I'm losing this fight, pain is brewed in my mind .
• In a battle with heavy artillery and I'm armed with a knife.
• If sleep is for the weak, call me Hercules.
• future seems bleak, I'm a circus freak.
• I know u think I'm rhyming for props and attention,
• But I'm at my wits end and could use some affection.
• Why do I rely on these pills just to ease up the tension?
• Why the fuck I gotta take Zoloft to beat my depression?
• It's like you're stuck in the matrix, reality on a script
• These fucking doctors prescribe it but don't really know shit.
• Feeling half dead and tears just won't fall,
• Y'all all walking and I'm feeling destined to crawl.
• And why the fuck do I have all this anger and rage?
• Feel this guilt for no reason, feel embarrassed, ashamed.
• I need help and I reach out with a pen and a page.
• Write my final goodbyes before I splatter my brains
• Maybe it's seems too intense, extreme or insane,
• But this is what this illness does, tonight I dig my own grave.