CHALLENGER'S RAP

• my grandparents have done nothing but love and support me
• but them supporting, loving, and wanting me around is still something I doubt
• when It comes to the shit I say to those amazing people, I am not proud
• I've said some pretty fucked up things
• I cuss em out, pushing all of the limits
• and In my opinion, a long time ago they should've called it quits
• I've even said that rather than living with them I would've rather of been taken out of existence
• I don't know why I keep them at a distance
• They've given me so many chances, fuck I think it's up in the thousands or millions
• I've called them dumbasses for being Christians
• but they are their own fucking people with their own decisions
• and I shouldn't judge the people who love me the most just because of their opinions
• I started hanging out with the wrong people in the 6th grade
• they talked about doing shit and I wanted to relate
• but in the process you guys I betrayed
• I should've listened to you, I should've snapped out it and got my life straight
• but no I was too busy Poppin pills and getting laid
• but you guys continued to pray
• yeah for me you prayed
• I told them it was a waste of time and that it was too late
• but In their hearts, it was never too late, and kept praying for me to be saved
• and to be honest with you I'm ashamed
• the way I act, it isn't how I was raised
• they had a good Christian name but once they adopted me it got stained
• no, I'm not wishing I was a saint
• But I just wish that my life wasn't such a burden and a waste
• i want all the shit that I've done to be erased
• maybe I wasn't the right kid for them, maybe the right one got misplaced
• unlike wine, I don't get better when I'm aged
• hell I get worse as I age
• the older I get the more I'm filled with rage
• I'm a solo teenage ramage
• and they didn't do shit to deserve the shit that I give
• I'm lucky that they forgive
• but one day they won't forgive
• and when that day comes, I don't know If I'll be able to live with myself knowing all that I did
• every new drug I found, I was addicted
• every crime I commited
• and every fight I started
• but hurting them is not something that I wanted
• and I know I never showed it but you guys were always the most respected
• and I'm sorry for not being who you expected