DEFENDER'S RAP

• No more pretending, fuck a stigma. //
• It's rattling my brain and I cannot think straight with these edgy jitterbugs,
• Tried repressing to nip it in the bud by getting prescription remedies, shit outta luck,
• When that evidently only strengthens and lengthens these symptums. //
• Anxiety is... Intercepting my well-being from getting my shit done,
• It's just, like...
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• DOOM IMPENDING – It hits ya,
• Never seen yet it feels inauspish-ous,
• Progressively unsteady as it steadily hits ya //
• Like a telly the excessive fretting just picks up,
• —Can't tell if there's an answer to it—
• Chest beats, *bip-bip, bup* it skips some, ya sweaty, breath's heavy, already overthink'un //
• Restlessly trembling ~ Fled the scene and kicked dust //
• Stressing, slept 3 hours, into the shower ya cower preventing from letting it get'chya,
• Then empty the built up, tears of fear
• Steering clear of whenever "it" comes,
• Until it reappears at the drop of a feather, in an ins-tunt. //
• Pressured to get up, coaxed to remember you only live ONCE,
• (Not Nintendo, can't respawn)
• But ya stressors turn inta',
• Depressors and it surely convinced ya,
• You never wanted to endure this and live ONE!... //
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• Because ya head is killin' your every-will to keep TRYING TO! //
• Suspenseful chills by electric fields of mental illness, like LIGHTNING SHOOTS at ya mindlessly,
• That's anxiety. //
• Thoughts vs thoughts in a silent fued,
• It lies to me, and it lies to you. //
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• Hyper-realization transpires to save you from fires, dangerous finds,
• Too much and you can't even trust yourself because your brain is a liar //
• Then labelled unstable, perspiring,
• That's anxiety. //
• A threat/d that kinda looms
• Reemerging the RESPUN cloud of tangled wires,
• As it strangles ya entire reasoning,
• "Leave it be"? Unable. Annoyance,
• Flake out in avoidance. //
• The forces floor ya into a torpid coma *Belelelel*
• Can't tame paranoia, even ya guardian angel is judging you,
• A recipe for disaster your gut'll brew,
• Mind is racing a triathlon faster, for the unsought-after harmful factors it may run in to. //
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• Your decision to a fight or flight scenario,
• You might've fleed in a roundabout way... //
• Cuz feelin' dizzy like a spiral or Merry-Go,
• Anxiety wins the round: A bout out-weighed... //
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• But it's OK, don't be discouraged. //
• If you feel like your head is going in circles, going to explode from the nervousness,
• If you're lonely or hurt, you feel broken or worthless //
• Take deep breaths... Baby steps...
• On an amazing trek, taken head on you can enjoy the journey
• Even if it's being brave at best, just know you're worth it. //
• Take deep breaths.
• Baby steps.
• It's nothing more than an awareness check
• Take necessary precautions, it's ok to be wary but be calm in knowing it's only
• Over-alertness. //
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• Because absolutely, anxiety is real and it's a real nuisance
• Except for what it portrays, is fake, it's really all an illusion