DEFENDER'S RAP

• I can't talk about heart break when I feel no pain
• All the bad memories my brain contains
• Remember back to 2001, with two flying planes
• All the crashes, all the smashes, all the bloodstains
• That hit this county harder than a hurricane
• We still remember that year, like it was just today
• Flash forward 7 years, arrive in Bombay
• Remember how this bright place, turned so grey
• Yea I have flash backs of pain, everyday
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• My dad got arrested when I was only twelve
• I remember now, why I want to kill myself
• It's as easy as a barrel and one shell
• Go outside my room in the motel
• You can hear me crying, you can hear me yell
• Praying to god like, what the hell?!
• All the good people in my life, I seem to repel!
• So i'll just sit here, say I miss ya, and just dwell
• One shot is all it takes!
• Or I'll jump in the road, and pray they don't stomp the brakes
• All you bitches are some fakes, I'll just drown in the lake!
• Now I have a headache, from all this heartbreak
• I sit and shake, like a fucking earthquake
• And I stay awake
• I'll just start dealing, and hope that one day I fucking get shanked!
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• What the hell you thought this was?
• Did you actually think I was loved
• I can't sit still, without getting pushed or shoved
• My heart wasn't broken, that shit was crushed!
• I can't be great at anything, I get left in the dust
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• Now I'm coughing and wheezing
• This pain in my chest, I'm hurting I'm bleeding!
• All of my friends? Those bastards deceived me!
• Now it's finally time, my body stopped breathing
• But, I can't give up now, I have battles with heathens
• I scream to myself, trying to rid of those demons
• I hate my fucking self, I'm the opposite of conceited
• FUCK!