DEFENDER'S RAP

• right now, life is hard, feeling like i've been disregarded, by everyone,
• lost my whole family practically, in just 5 years time,
• now all i got is my mom and my fam from the hood,
• my life would probably be so different right now if she listened and understood,
• how hard it was to move away from my childhood, the place where i grew up in,
• me and that place have a special connection, ever since ive had random acts of aggression,
• i question every move i make, everyday is like a major headache,
• i told her that we should've stayed, then we moved and i felt betrayed,
• it felt like a seven inch blade went into my brain then into the heart,
• moving to the big city has left me scarred, mostly mentally,
• she left our life for a guy who was in her and my dad's life before he died,
• just got out of prison a couple days after my dad died,
• i don't know why she had to leave our lives behind, for that guy,
• shattered my life, left it disorganized, they didn't even stay together for that long,
• messed me up so bad, i had to do this song, the city i was born is somewhere i belong,
• not in a city where you can get shot up in your own home at a moments notice,
• for a couple days down here i thought i was gonna be homeless,
• down here, almost everyone is soulless, making me feel like life is hopeless,
• wish i could get a wand and say hocus pocus, or abracadabra,
• and life would go back to the way it was, cause the big city is tryna changing me,
• into a different person, different then i once was, people i knew before have even noticed it,
• my life has gone to shit, just because of my mom falling in love with some guy,
• now my life's a mess, gotten me into a pit of hella stress,
• all this i just had to confess, cause im tired of constantly having to suppress these feelings.