DEFENDER'S RAP

• family
• it's something that you are supposed to think about happily
• not something that is about to cause your insanity
• I keep a picture of my family on the vanity
• but never look at it cause it hurts my mentality
• most of them look at me like I'm supposed to bend down on one knee
• and say your majesty
• do I fit in with them, now that is a subject I call touchy
• the one person I trust is on the other side of the country
• but at least I will get to see her eventually
• my whole family looks at me with disgust
• and tells me to stop trying to be NF
• your nothing more than a fucking wannabe
• they say I'm just in it for the money
• I just laugh at them and say you're funny
• in my world, there isn't a day that's sunny
• but that's just my life my life
• yeah nothing more than my life my life
• yeah my life my life
• bullies
• they take pipes and hit me in the knees
• I can't wait to forget all these horrible memories
• all these motherfucking highschool worries
• what she thinks or he thinks, I just want to find something to hide underneath
• just give some fucking space and let me breathe
• you want to make fun of me
• there's the door, now fucking leave
• this pain that I feel suddenly decides to increase
• I mean fuck can't a guy get some goddamn peace
• without having someone they always have to please
• I fucking hate bullies
• they are just overgrown teens, who act tough but in reality are nothing but
• pussies
• if only I could stop every goddamn thing just by yelling freeze
• but I can't and that's just my life my life
• yeah its only my life my life
• yeah my life my life
• love life
• imagine every day and night getting stabbed by a knife
• but somehow you survive
• that's what it feels like to have a love life
• but that's in the past now, my girlfriend is the only reason I'm still alive
• in lies, I gave some advice
• but now I've come to realize
• then you will never be happy and feel like your in that absolute paradise
• but this is the first time I've ever gotten to witness such paradise
• but that's just my life my life
• yeah it's my life my life
• yeah my life my life
• heartbreak
• it's something I despise
• love may be amazing but most of the time, she's only in disguise
• trust me its not fun so far I've witnessed it twice
• now before I continue let me apologize
• I know that not all girls are heartless to guys and are filled with lies
• but to the girls who are horrible, why can't you realize
• that those things are the reason so many spirts fill the skies
• you are guy's demise
• you are my demise
• and one lats thing live or die
• do or die
• fuck it lets all commit suicide