DEFENDER'S RAP

• yo Go ahead and call me a coward
• And say that I'm not strong, because I'm not like you
• Go ahead and call me crazy
• Cause I live in a maze, tell me how about you?
• I think I live in my head
• Sometimes I think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth
• Know I been losing my mind
• And I'm a little behind, step inside my shoes
• Cause I've never been happy with myself
• And I don't need no one feeling bad for me
• Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me
• Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me
• Behind closed doors, just close the door
• Let me be by myself, just me and myself
• I'm tired of living, I cry
• I hear it's easy to die, I wanna see for myself
• And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else
• But I'm depressed as fuck, stressed as fuck
• Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs
• I mean, I need extra love
• And that ain't even enough, said that ain't even enough
• And where the fuck is God? (God, God)
• Damn, maybe I ain't believing enough
• But today we gonna see if He's real