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CHALLENGER'S RAP
- yo Go ahead and call me a coward
- And say that I'm not strong, because I'm not like you
- Go ahead and call me crazy
- Cause I live in a maze, tell me how about you?
- I think I live in my head
- Sometimes I think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth
- Know I been losing my mind
- And I'm a little behind, step inside my shoes
- Cause I've never been happy with myself
- And I don't need no one feeling bad for me
- Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me
- Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me
- Behind closed doors, just close the door
- Let me be by myself, just me and myself
- I'm tired of living, I cry
- I hear it's easy to die, I wanna see for myself
- And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else
- But I'm depressed as fuck, stressed as fuck
- Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs
- I mean, I need extra love
- And that ain't even enough, said that ain't even enough
- And where the fuck is God? (God, God)
- Damn, maybe I ain't believing enough
- But today we gonna see if He's real
DEFENDER'S RAP
- The past is the past, but I can't let it go, and it breaks me, I swear this shit fucking breaks me
- I'm desperate, can somebody come and save me? Cause lately I've been close to the fuckin' edge, so many suicidal thoughts in my fucking head
- I'm so depressed and I feel ashamed, popping pills everyday so I don't feel the pain, but I don't say shit, I don't ever say shit, cause every time I try it's like I hear the same shit
- "nicky, you gon' be just fine, you just gotta give it time, find your peace of mind."
- But you don't understand the tears that I shed, sometimes I just cry only wishing I was dead. And I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry for the way I feel
- I'm so lost in my dreams don't know what is real. This poetry is all I have when I feel deprived, I grab my pad and my pen, and I feel revived
- I can't decide what the fuck am I here for, I'm doing what I love but my heart's still sore. I still battle with depression on a daily. I see my own reflection, and I swear I fuckin' hate me, I said I swear I fuckin' hate me
- Got a big heart, but my heart's slowly breaking. Chasing all my dreams, but I don't know where it's gon' take me
- Tired of being broke, gotta start acting shady. Making dirty money, yo, this shit is so degrading. Mamma, know I'm sorry for this route in which I'm taking, I ain't fuckin' proud of these decisions that I'm making, but I'm desperate for some answers, why my heart is always aching
- If you hear me Lord, talk to me, all the sins from my past have been haunting me, I'm so scared of the future so I stay stuck broken into pieces, yo, my spirits all taped up
- I came up, but it feels like I'm coming down. Pool full of liquor, swim 'til i fuckin' drown. That's the only way I know how to crack a smile, taking shots 'til I vomit and I'm passing out... When I'm sober, I just feel afraid, I don't know if I'ma live to see another day. I'm tryin' to stand but I feel like I'm about to cave, I'm so trapped in my mind like a fuckin' slave
- So much weight on my chest, got me feeling tired. Plague in my soul, swear it's like a wildfire, like a wildfire spreading everywhere. Take a look into my eyes, see the pain, oh, there's plenty there. See the pain, yo, there's plenty there
- I don't know if they really care. Where is love is it anywhere? And if it is, yo, it's really rare